Status Updates From Białe noce

“because one is growing into manhood, outgrowing one’s old ideals: they are being shattered into fragments, into dust; if there is no other life one must build one up from the fragments”…

This is already too much. Right out of the gate with (paraphrase): "I've wasted my life dreaming but I don't know another way to be without the right person/relationship to ground me in reality and give me purpose. I also know it is a sin and a crime to be the way I have been."