Status Updates From The Life of a Stupid Man

He wanted to live life so intensely that he could die at any moment without regrets. But still, out of defense to his adoptive parents and his aunt, he kept himself in check. This created both light and dark sides of his life. Seeing a comic puppet in a Weatern's tailor's shop made him wonder how close he himself was to such a figure. -- R.A.

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Walking through the rain, he looked back and up once again at the trolley line. The cable was still sending sharp sparks into the air. He could think of nothing in life that he especially desired, but those purple sparks -- those wildly-blooming flowers of fire -- he would trade his life for the chance to hold them in his hands. -- R.A.

He often wondered, in that suburban second story, if people who loved each other had to cause each other pain. Even as the thought crossed his mind, he was aware of the floor's eerie tilt. -- R.A.

All the lunatics had been dressed in the same gray clothing, which seemed to give the large room an even more depressing look. One of them sat at an organ, playing a hymn over and over with great intensity. [...] Ten years earlier, his mother had been in no way different from these lunatics. In no way. And in fact in their smell he caught a whiff of his own mother's smell. -- R.A.

I am living now in the unhappiest happiness imaginable. Yes, strangely, I have no regrets. I just feel sorry for anyone unfortunate enough to have had a bad husband, a bad son, a bad father like me. So goodbye, then. I have not tried -- consciously, at least -- to vindicate myself here. [...] I invite you to strip it off and laugh at my stupidity. -- Akutagawa Ryunosuke, 20 June 1927