Status Updates From Keeping Her Under

It never made it better.
Not even temporarily.
But there was an allure to that darkness. A desire to fill the hole that those men carved out of me with something that wasn’t so... empty.

Ugh, this makes me so sad

“Kiss her.” I murmur at the screen even though I know they can’t hear me. That if they could, my life would be over. I’d be in jail, and my future wife would be out of my reach.

I am questioning my morals right now and realised they must really be gone.