Status Updates From State of Ruin (Alchemy New ...

Now I see her every single night when I close my eyes. And if I need a refresher, I just open them, and she’s right there, next to me. That’s enough—for now. But I’m still a Voss. And I always want more. So I won’t be entirely happy until I see her lovely features on our children’s faces, too.

😩❤️

“Please, please will you marry me?” he asked, holding it up. “I can’t live without you, my darling. I don’t even want to try. And I promise you, I’ll spend the rest of my life loving you and supporting you and lifting you up. I just want to be in your orbit.”

Hes a SIMP 😭😩🥰🥰

“I think you have a beautiful heart,” she whispers into my ear. “And I think your parents have maybe guided you away from relying on it, and maybe you got a bit lost along the way. But now you’re seeing someone who can help you, and you’re feeling everything.” Her arms flex around my neck. “And that’s the guy I want to be with, a guy whose heart tells him how to live.”
🥹❤️

Tears spill from my eyes and slick my cheeks and leak into our kiss. “Hey,” she murmurs, “it’s okay.”
“It’s not, though,” I say brokenly. “Because I love you so much, and I thought I’d lost you—I thought I’d fucked up so badly that I’d never, ever get to see you again, and I just can’t believe this is happening, and I’m just—I’m having a hard time with it.”

OKAY I FORGIVE HIM😭

I am in a state of befuddlement. I hated him and now i dont. Im unwell.

No no no no no no NO
Dont you dare make me forgive this man!!!!!!

Am I such a self-obsessed, sociopathic asshole that it’s only through the perspective of other, regular people with actual moral compasses that I can calibrate it properly?

Apparently sir

Consider things from her perspective?? Thats literally everyone’s perspective of the situation you pretentious douche!?

“If you’d gone along with my proposed rate for sessions at my apartment, you would have made that money back already. I was trying to look out for you. I’m not completely devoid of morals. Of course I didn’t want you out of pocket.”

IS HE FORREAL?!?!??!?!

“My take is that this guy wants to keep you small. He likes things just the way they are, where he’s the hitter and you’re some nobody. And I don’t know about you, but that kind of relationship dynamic doesn’t work for me at all. It doesn’t work in the office, either, which is why I walked.”

BINGO

God Vanessa is my favorite in the book. What a freaking icon.

“Just answer me one question. Did you at least have the balls to tell Elyse that you ruined the career opportunity of a lifetime for her right off the bat?”
I blink. I wasn’t expecting that. Shit. “I⁠—”
“Yeah,” she says, looking me up and down in disgust. “Thought not. You spineless fucking douche.”

Something shutters over his face. “Just remember, you don’t secure a place like this in society without being willing to do what it takes.”
“Okay,” I say slowly, “but you’re not like that, right?” Every instinct in my body tells me Sinclair is a straight-down-the-line kind of guy, whatever sins his ancestors have committed to get him here.

WRONG

Sinclair brother Sebastian was married to secret lesbian Charlotte
Now they are divorced. He remarried & Charlotte w/ her true love
Sinclair parents only care about image. Total fucked up

Felix (Anton dad & step mom Genevie) is Sinclair bff
Next bk. Felix & actress Grace
Kieran - ex athlete is bk 3

He finally realizes how selfish & f’ed up it was to keep her small
He confesses all his family demons
On Christmas Eve she forgives him
book not spicy 2nd half
They wed
Have daughter 13 month old Chloe &on 5th Christmas Eve after she forgave him she tells him she is preg
He do happy he is now 41
She got huge Lane campaign & lots more modeling gigs
But obv
Not for his company
Karma is a bitch

Then Sinclair wants Elyse at his apt for night $25K. She says no to money but yes to date
She is up for Sinclair company beauty campaign & he blocks her from getting gig
Vanessa - campaign director quits & tells Elyse what Sinclair did
She confronts him & they obv break up. She blocks him
He starts therapy & writes her nightly letters that get delivered to her house
Too wordy
Just read “Quotes”

KU
Sinclair - rich manwhore. Member of Alchemy
Elyse - bartender at Alchemy & model but has not had big break. Sister hit by car while biking Hip redone major surgery. Huge medical bills. Living g together w/ their dad & Sylvia daughter Fleur to help b/c Sylvia in wheelchair
Sinclair sees Elyse & wants her for 1 hr - $10k
Obv she does & he into pillory spicy ch 8 & 9
Arrange another $10k /hr next week

But there’s a tiny, fragile voice somewhere deep inside my head that has other takes on why Sinclair Voss is keeping a nobody like me on the down-low, and it likes to whisper its theory far too often. That theory is that I’m a nobody. Worse: I’m a server from a blue-collar family, and there’s no way I’m worthy of a man like Sinclair making a public statement with me.

DING DING 🛎️

“I’d shout about us from the rooftops if I could. I want to take you out and show you off to the world. But—it’s complicated, mainly because of my profile. That sounds douchey, but I don’t want you getting pulled into all my shit.”

Liarrrrrr its bc you don’t want her to know about the modeling gig you shivved her of

This twat is sitting here monologuing about how sick he feels that she is so hard on herself about her lack of modeling success. And how she is beautiful and perfect and iconic and blah blah blah. But yet he still shafted her career himself and sits next to her acting like he’s her cheerleader. 🤯🤬🤬🤬

“Your legs are perfect.” His expression is very serious. “As is your face. I’m sure you’ll find great success—you just need the right job.”
That’s very sweet of him to say, even if he’s biased. Not for the first time, I give silent thanks that he’s oblivious to my epic failure to land that gig at Voss.

Im honestly just rage baiting myself at this point. I hate him.

“Everyone could use twenty-five grand…….But needing it and feeling ethically comfortable with taking it are very different things.”
I won’t feel “ethically comfortable” unless she takes it. Unless she allows me to compensate her so well for her time that I’m essentially compensating her for the campaign I killed. By my calculations, a couple of months of this arrangement would cover it nicely.
🤬

This thing with Elyse can only exist behind closed doors. If that wasn’t certain enough before, my stunt last week has made sure of that.

Yeah I’m going to absolutely squash your career behind your back, but don’t worry babe I’m also not going to take you out in public myself either! Only closed door rendezvous for us!

AN ABSOLUTE FREAKING DOUCHEBAG

I’ve been more intimate with Sinclair in the shadowy corners of Alchemy than I could ever have dreamed, but this would have been legit. This would have meant a chance for me to shine in the light of day.

Im actually so angry for her i could die

Sure, I feel vaguely shitty that I’m depriving her of this opportunity, but I’ll make it up to her. I’ll pay her so much money to keep sucking my dick that she won’t miss this win at all.

The absolute freaking audacity of this egomaniac…..

Let me get this straight. He pays her for sex 2x. Has not dated her, courted her, nor spoken to her but twice outside of those instances. And has the GALL to bar her from making money for the sole reason that he wants to keep her under a financial thumb. Because he knows she will skyrocket in fame, therefore money. That is the low down, dirtiest narcissistic thing I’ve ever heard. How freaking cruel.

I don’t get how you get to be as hot and wealthy and shiny as her and still feel like guys hold all the power. It really, truly sucks.

The power is in the punani, ladies

I heard there was epic groveling, let’s be the judge of that…