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i hated you as something too great. I wanted for once to be the wealthy one, the one bearing gifts, the master, and you were the one who should come to me and accept the warm hospitality of my care and my love. And once again I was the smallest beggar on the last threshold of your presence that stood on such broad and secure pillars..

And Lou, I believe this must be so. This is one life and that is another; and we are not made to have two lives...For isn't it true, Lou?;it has to be so. We should be like a stream and not wander into canals and carry water in the pastures. Isn't it true, we should hold ourselves firmly together and roar? Perhaps when we are old, we will be permitted to spread ourselves out and empty into a delta...dear Lou!

"Sometimes I want to lift myself out of this silence and ascend to you as if to the saint of that distant homeland that I cannot reach - so seized with the knowledge that you are the bright star that stands directly above the location of my darkest and most fearful self."