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The whole thing is futile.

I am done with these essays but I find that they illuminate more about the human condition than the levinson & davies & kivy that my eyes glaze over.

human life, it is a valuable beautiful incredible miracle. art is amplification, it is criticism, it crafts new impressions in passage of time. i am really upset that i have to study it in this manner.

review tbc. bye guys.

I think there is anger in my heart against the cold philosophy which I am reading for my Oxford tutorial. It's actually white hot. I hate to admit it because I want to love what I am doing here in this wondrous place. I can feel the impossible bubbling of resentment and vengeance against the frigid imposition of rationality (as if humans were rational actors!) upon art, beauty, and aesthetic experience.

إن رغبة ذاكرتي، في أن تقيم رقابة ذاتية على نفسها، أمر منكر. ذاك هو إشراق الذاكرة وبؤسها: هي معتزة بأنها تعرف كيف تحافظ بإخلاص على المتتالية المنطقية للأحداث الماضية، لكنها عندما يتعلق الأمر بالطريقة التي عشنا بها تلك الأحداث، لا تشعر بأنها مرتبطة بأي واجب تجاه الحقيقة.