Status Updates From Der Ekel

lots of awesome grammar choices here; y’all are going to see me moving differently from now on

'What was I doing there? Why was I talking to those people? Why was I dressed so oddly? My passion was dead. For years it had submerged me and swept me along; now I felt empty.'
'Shall I awake in a few months, a few years, exhausted, disappointed, in the midst of ruins? I should like to understand myself properly before it is too late.'