Status Updates From Shadows of Ourselves (The L...

“The last time I went somewhere with you, you literally kidnapped me, you creepy fucking dude! Do you have any idea how alarming that is? You’re problematic.”

IM SCREAMING

"The world was only just starting to turn."

Wow.
Yes.
Yes.

"Let him be ash."

...holy shit. :)

“He looks like Mr. Tumnus.”
I frowned. “Are you implying those are mutually exclusive? Mr. Tumnus was pretty fucking dapper, Riley.”

this is an amazing and important conversation

"we’re all constantly trying to turn our faces away and pretend we can’t see how much things hurt us, how much people change us. It hurts so much to look, but if you don’t you miss a hell of a view."

...i love this book so much.

OHHHH plot twist.

hm.
I don't know yet. see where this goes.

"I doubted any painting I ever completed could capture the vast silence. Something about it was familiar, like I’d felt my own throat flood with it time after time."

this is just so good it hurts

"We waste life when we think it will stretch on forever—we throw away the minutes like nothing, like dust and spare change. We’re fucking idiots."

Phoebus Staring At Ceiling.jpg

I knew he wanted to keep up that aura of mystery, could see that he loved walking around like a living question mark in the way he smirked at me as I studied him now. He wanted me to take the bait—I just couldn’t figure out why.

...ever want a book and its writing to... not end?

"This wasn’t bad. It was devastating. A ten on the emotional Richter scale. More than I could handle right now."

(musical theatre brain: "if he said he loved me, i'd be lost, i'd be frightened. i'd turn my head, i'd back away. I wouldn't want to know.")

“Fuck you!”
“If I went around fucking everyone who wanted me I’d never have time left for anything else, now, would I?”

OMFG I SNORTED, this is up there with No need to call me Sir, Professor

“Alright,” I said, stepping forward. Someone with more bite than him needed to take care of this if we wanted to be out of here before Christmas. “You’re an asshole, we’re assholes. Everyone’s an asshole. Glad we got that settled."

...i just love snotty Sky, ok, i really do

“The faerie queen, she’s transgender. If you misgender her, she’ll curse you to dance until you die. She’s done it before. Just a word to the wise.” Ouch.
“Festive,” I said. “And painful. Good thing I’m not an asshole.”

im so in love

“In books,” he said, “things make sense. Deaths have meaning and people have destinies and higher powers to guide them. Soulmates find each other, through anything... There’s no worrying or fumbling or indecision—it’s all passion and fate and being chosen, and there’s usually a happily ever after."

...oh. 😿

"Ice and salt and cracks in pavement, limp yellow weeds partially buried under snow or kissed by frost. Puddles of freezing, muddy water flooding deep potholes. The dark, unforgiving sky. This was the world, and I had just come loose in it."

The prose in this is just so gorgeous. Descriptions and emotion, I know them.

“The last time I went somewhere with you, you literally kidnapped me, you creepy fucking dude! Do you have any idea how alarming that is? You’re problematic.”

IM SCREAMING

“The last time I went somewhere with you, you literally kidnapped me, you creepy fucking dude! Do you have any idea how alarming that is? You’re problematic.”

IM SCREAMING

“They?” I asked.
“I use gender neutral pronouns,” Ursa said ahead of us.
“Gender is kind of an illusion anyway."

AHHHHH, didnt even expect! holy surprise they/them, Batman!!💜✨

"His movements reminded me of the violence of a storm out at sea. I could feel myself painting it—the crook of his elbow in the intersection where sky met water, the curve of his hunched back as he lunged like the wide arc of a full moon, nestled among clouds of blood red smoke."

AAAAHHHHH 💜✨😍

"If I weren’t so tired I would have told him to stop acting like Edward Cullen and do something useful"

i have to document this as the point i spat out popcorn laughing, it was just very unexpected and great

"Anxiety looks like empty space and time to spare."

...This is just so good.

WELL NOW THIS IS MORE LIKE IT

"Someone had dipped a brush in black paint and drawn a fat, unrelenting line between me and the rest of the world."

The writing in this is just wonderful - and also, Relatable. (Stares at Disassociation~)