Status Updates From Diario intimo

“Writing a journal means that facing your ocean you are afraid to swim across it, so you attempt to drink it drop by drop.”

“I must put behind me a period of time together with some data which may be referred to as a past. I must exhibit a past which will prove to him that I can love, suffer and submit.”

i dont know if i will ever finish this. was under the impression
there would be sex. only desperate depression instead.

"Oh, sim!meu pobre amigo, eu amo!Em vão invoco a cólera em meu auxílio.Eu amo, por isso morro, a menos que Deus me conceda a graça de um milagre.(.)Não posso trabalhar!Ah, a solidão, a solidão!Não estou capaz de escrever nem de orar.(.)E eu sozinha, sozinha para todo o sempre, quero matar-me;quem se arroga o direito de mo impedir?
[Nota da leitora: viveu até aos 72 anos e até lá gastou todas as interjeições do mundo]

"Sand coloca-o [o diário] de lado sempre que a vida lhe corre de feição: "A partir do momento em que a vida se torna suportável, já não carece de análise. Arruinaremos um dia de sossego se teimarmos em dissecá-lo ao pormenor", retomando-o quase hora a hora nos momentos de desespero."

(...) Lentamente, tomei a cor alva da flor de lis. À minha volta, via almas felizes que punham as mãos e bendiziam a Deus. O céu entreabriu-se e escutei a voz do Alto, que dizia: «Vinde, minhas fortes, podeis descansar», mas nada vi, pois silenciara-se a sinfonia.

“I cannot say that I have ever loved life. I think I was born impatient to die. Ten years ago when I felt I was dying I was content to go. Indeed, the certainty of final death was the one comforting thought that sustained me. But I realized then that my soul was dying first, and I decided to keep my body in order to save my soul.”

“Will any method of persuasion reach those who are set against the truth? ... What appeal can be made to minds protected from truth by an iron wall of prejudice? ... Base and cowardly natures instinctively hate truth and justice. That we know and accept. But what are we to think of human nature when we meet noble minds open to truth on many sides, and see them close before truth which offends their prejudice?”