Status Updates From Letters to the Lost

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“You were the first person to see all of me, Juliet. The first person who made me feel like I was worth more than a reputation and a record. That’s the hardest part of losing Cemetery Girl. I don’t know if anyone will look at me that same way again.”
-Declan

”His thumb brushes against my neck in a soothing rhythm. “I like you.”
“I like you, too.”
“I’ve liked you since the morning you ran into me.”

”I’m wearing short sleeves,” he says after a moment.
“Okay.” I glance over. “You don’t have anything to prove, Rev.”
“I’m not ready,” he says. “Not yet.”
I shrug and try not to make this seem like a big deal. “There’s always tomorrow.”
“Yeah,” he agrees. “There’s always tomorrow.”

”We were wrong,” she says. “You make your own path.”

She came home early, exactly like I’d begged her to do. She came home three days early.
Just not to be with us.
- Juliet

She turns around and follows Alan into the kitchen.
My legs don’t want to hold me anymore. “I’m sorry,” I yell, and my voice breaks. “I’m sorry, okay? I’m sorry I didn’t drive him. I’m sorry I let Kerry go. I’m sorry.”
She doesn’t respond.
She doesn’t come back.
They leave me there on the steps, alone.
- Declan

”I didn’t do anything wrong,” I say again.
“You take every chance you get to do something wrong!” he roars. “You don’t think about anyone but yourself, and when someone does something you don’t like, you do everything you can to destroy it! Why the hell do you think we wouldn’t tell you?”

”I don’t think you wanted to kill yourself.”
I pull next to his car in the now-empty employee lot. “Didn’t you listen to everything I just told you?”
“Yeah. I did. Maybe you wanted to try to kill yourself, but I don’t think you wanted to actually do it.”
“What’s the difference?”

I want to be coy, but my voice comes out serious. “Am I stronger than you thought I was?”
-Juliet
“You’re exactly as strong as I thought you were.”
-Declan

I assumed that if I weren’t driving, he would stay home.
I was wrong. He went out.
He took Kerry with him.
Only one of them came home.
- Declan

”Rev doesn’t like having his picture taken?”
“No. If you look in the old yearbooks, you’ll see he doesn’t have a portrait in any of them.”
I blink. “Really?”
“Yeah. Really.”
“Why?”
Declan’s hands go still, but he keeps his eyes on the wheel. “Because his father used to hurt him and then take pictures of it.”

”Better get back on the dance floor, princess.” Declan’s words are full of icy disdain. “Wouldn’t want anyone to catch you slumming with the losers.”

”You’re the one who showed me I could be normal.”
- Juliet

”Why do you always wear a hoodie?” says Rowan.
Rev looks at her, and his expression doesn’t change. I can’t tell if he’s bothered by the question. “They’re comfortable.”
“It’s eighty degrees outside.”

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She’s asking me about fate yanking people apart, and I can’t help but wonder if this is fate’s way of doing exactly that.
- Declan

If I can’t blame fate, who else is left?
- Juliet

I’ve read the note at least sixty-seven times, and it still gives me a secret thrill. I glance around the classroom, checking to see if it’s contagious, as if the rest of the class should be able to feel the jolt this one little note gives me.
- Declan

I don’t even know you, but I feel like I understand you.
I feel like you understand me.
And that’s what I like so much about it.