Status Updates From Sula

what the fugggg sula sleeps with Jude (nel’s husband) and nel is mad at Jude mostly because he leaves her for Sula. Something about a gray ball which I’m kind of confused about, I think just grief? but anyways poor nel and she says sula took the life from her thighs and Jude took her heart. nel is sad she will never be able to experience this again but still have to do all she does normally (chores and work)