Status Updates From Mléko a med

you might not have been my first love but you were the love that made all the other loves irrelevant
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you've touched me without even touching me
how do you turn a forest fire like me so soft i turn into running water

emptying out of my mother's belly was my first act of disappearance learning to shrink for a family who likes their daughters invisible was the second
the art of being empty is simple
believe them when they say you are nothing repeat it to yourself
Like a wish i am nothing i am nothing i am nothing

trying to convince myself i am allowed to take up space is like writing with my left hand when i was born
to use my right
- the idea of shrinking is hereditary

the abused
and the
abuser
- i have been both


Hmmm maybe that explains poems page 88 and 105?

Oh no...
There's another pick-me-narcisstic-girl energy poem....

Ngl, page 88 poem really put me off because I just can't understand it in any way other than a pick-me narcissistic girl who's pretending she's unforgettable and incomparable and is humiliating another woman

I seriously dissected this poem, read it over 15 times, did research, and have been thinking about it for 24 hours (not exaggerating) and there is no other way to understand it

Need someone who has read this book to discuss the poem on page 88 with me