Status Updates From G.H.’ye Göre Çile

maybe the worst thing i could have chosen to read while in the middle of moving across state lines

“I was seeing what only later would I feel — I mean, only later would I experience a profound loss of meaning. Only later would I understand: what seems a lack of meaning. . . is what meaning there is. Every instant of “lack of meaning” is precisely the frightening certainty that it is there that meaning lies and that I not only can’t reach it but don’t want to because there are no guarantees…”

PINGA