Status Updates From R E D

last version of dracula i’ll be reading/watching for a while but very excited for this one!!

“He threw his arms around my shoulders
his hand tightening trembling
I assured him that it was a moment that often happened to men
He was at a loss for words and remembered violence
his property to deal with as one would old flowers”

“Change had come
Death had given back part of her beauty
it was as if Death might be dying
I stood and said is it the end
when I asked she only answered
Wait and see”

“I was a woman in the usual way
I had no language but distress and duty
I have been taught to doubt my mother and fear tradition
but my queer tongue would not could not shut up”

obsessed with the concept of (queer) erasure poems using Dracula as a source

"I want you to know all this / understand how much I need to show you / It was he who caused me to disappear / My husband my husband and other men / hunt me and command my flesh my blood my brain / This is my pollution story"

"I felt this big man on me and I thought / there was no woman whom he could know sympathy for"

"Men want to explain explain explain / see themselves new pretend to be young"

adding this to my understanding of moonstruck's "why do men cheat? because they fear death"