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I am afraid
of losing loved ones
and being alone in the dark
but mostly
I am afraid of being
merely tolerated
when I want so badly
to be loved.

I was falling down the waterfall
panicking, flailing,
while tourists with cameras
admired it from the riverbank,
in awe of its beauty.
You see, perspective is everything.
--What I feel like to me/What I look like to them