Status Updates From Letters to Milena

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Seeking requires faith!”

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“The only good reason for two people to get married is if it is impossible for them not to.”

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Incidentally, you say the same thing:” they lack the strength to love,’ shouldn’t that suffice to distinguish between ‘beast’ and ‘man’?”

Moreover, perhaps it isn’t love when I say your are what I love the most- you are the knife I turn inside myself, this is love.”

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Is there anyone in heaven or on earth who does?”

I am dirty, Milena, infinitely dirty, this is why I scream so much about purity. No one sings as purely as those who inhabit the deepest hell— what we take to be the song of angels is their song.”

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By the way, since when are you capable of lying? Your forehead is not the kind that can tell lies.”

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And now, Milena, on top of this you are turning away from me, not for long without a heartbeat, and as long as you are turned away how can my heart go on beating?”

This evening I once again spoke with a Palestinian Jew. It's impossible for me to describe him to you in a letter, to explain his importance for me a small, almost tiny, weak, bearded man with one eye.
But thinking about him cost me half the night.”

Ya Allah kapot eng

I cannot live apart from you without completely submitting to fear, giving it even more than it demands, and I do this voluntarily, I pour myself into it.”

Yesterday I advised you not to write me every day, I still hold the same opinion today and it would be very good for both of us, and
so I repeat my advice today even more emphatically— only please,
Milena, don't listen to me, and write me every day anyway, it can even be very brief, briefer than today's letters, just 2 lines, just one,
just one word, but if I had to go without them I would suffer terribly.”

With my teeth clenched ,however, and with your eyes before me I can endure anything: distance, anxiety, worry, letterlessness.”

Moreover, it is partly explained by the fact that it constantly forces me to realize I must admit and this is a great confession-that Milena, too, is only human.

Milena, you complain about some letters that you turn them in all directions and nothing falls out, but if I’m not mistaken those are precisely the ones where I was so close to you, my blood so restrained, restraining your own, so deep in the forest, so resting in rest, that nothing needed to be said, except perhaps that you can see the sky through the trees, that’s all.