Status Updates From Infinite Resignation

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Dear diary,

Today I continued with my miserable mental self mutilation by reading the uninteresting & uninspiring drivel of a theoryboi who offers nothing new, but is "successful" in "academia". As a teacher, I loathe the disintegration of protections for professors & teachers alike. As a reader, I think this man should be thrown out on his arse. Why do boring men worship the drivel of other boring men? Le sigh.

I seriously don't know if I can make it to the end of this book. My insistence on finish this is clearly some sort of twisted masochism, a grotesque self-torture that serves no purpose but to make me miserable.

If you're reading this update, save yourself before it's too late: don't read ANYTHING by Eugene Thacker. He's an example of why academic sucks ass.

I recently redownloaded Habitica, and joined a "read the beast" challenge to make me get a few huge books off my shelf. The goal is to finish a book that's over 500 in a month. This one isn't (only 400 pages). But this sure is a brutal best. God I have come to hate Thacker. I find the quality of his VERY thought lacking

Doggedly, I persist.

I LOATHE this book. LOATHE.

"But for me, the definition that best captures pessimism is given by the joke 'I see the glass half full, but of poison.'"

I realize people come to philosophical pessimism in two ways: philanthropy (in the literal sense) or misanthropy. My tension is that everyday is existentially painful and I live in despair yet at the same time, despite knowing that nothing ever truly gets better, I feel compelled to act.

"The most devastating thing about suffering is that it is relative. There is always someone who hurts more, someone who hurts less."

I have no patience for public performances of grief in this country. We didn't give a flying fuck about the million+ Americans who died during the pandemic. I've got nothing to give.

Oh brother

I cannot imagine that this guy is fun at parties.

Jesus christ this book is such a fucking slog