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This is probably the same or similar warped mindset ppl in abusive or toxic relationships say to themselves. I won’t like it’s hard and I honestly don’t know if I’m willing enough to actually do it. Like stop ruminating. Girl what. I genuinely don’t think that’s mentally possible. Ahhh . And asking for help sounds impossible and is my legit biggest nightmare soo yah that’s my life

Um I stopped reading it just before the 4th Re (relabel, reframe, refocus, and revaluing ) bc I realized a very scary thought that maybe deep down I don’t want to get better bc my depression has always been there for thr past almost 5 years even tho obvi I don’t want it there and it’s familiar so actually taking steps to get better truthfully sounds like something I need but don’t want at all. ->

This is for you Dr. Rickabaugh. Sorry I never actually read it when it was assigned to me in class last year