Status Updates From Lies and Other Drugs

"And you're hard for your dead boyfriend's sister,” I replied.
"Don't you know, Octavia? Your brother was so much more than just my boyfriend. I would have married him," he whispered. I heard the heartbreak in his voice, the disappointment. -->why am I doing this to myself 😶

Page- no one cares
“If I sucked you off, would you get hard? Would you imagine my brother on his knees in front of you?” I dropped to the floor, my knees landing with a thud. Reaching for his zipper, I licked my lips before looking up to smile at him. --> im so uncomfy im not even joking... girl your brother is dead and you talk like that abt him. Fucking hell 😟😟

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“So you’re going to go? Just like that?” he asked as I sat on the bed—with messy covers that smelled of sex—to put on my heels.
“Yep,” I said. My answer seemed to echo around the small room covered with our discarded clothes.
“Even after yesterday, after everything?" --> FUCKKKK I DONT WANT TO READ THISSSS 😭😭😭

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"Because it makes wanting you feel wrong," he whispered.
“Don’t you know, Young? With us, everything is wrong.” --> this is so fucking wrong.. I don't even know what to say. Im so uncomfy 😬😬

This is so ff-ed up, I think I will just read it in little installments because I don't think I could get trough it otherwise. It's not a bad book, actually quite good but just.. ff-ed up