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I look back with shame on my ignorance of the world, which I thought that I knew, and on my impatience, and on a kind of frivolous ambition and gross avidity which I then had.

Each of us believed that he was escaping from the narrow limits of his human state, feeling himself to be at the same time himself & his own adversary, at one w/ the god who seems to be both the animal victim & the human slayer. Such fantastic dreams, which sometimes terrify me now, were not so very different from the theories of Heraclitus upon the identity of the mark & the bow.