Status Updates From Good Old Neon

Protagonist on planning his suicide: " I was partly concerned that it might be spectacular and dramatic and might look as if the driver was trying to go out in as dramatic a way as possible. This is the sort of shit we waste our lives thinking about."

"The fraudulence paradox was that the more time and effort you put into trying to appear impressive or attractive to other people, the less impressive or attractive you felt inside — you were a fraud."

How sometimes it felt like I was
actually asleep and none of this was even real and someday out of nowhere I was maybe going to suddenly wake up in midstride.

corollary to the fraudulence paradox is that you simultaneously want to fool everyone you meet and yet also somehow always hope that you'll come across someone who is your match or equal and can't be fooled.