Status Updates From Milk Fed

“ as a child, i’d seen a wide range of nonterminal illnesses amongst my young friends, as well as the delicious food cures their mothers provided. i’d prayed that i would contract tonsillitis (ice cream), a stomach virus (ginger ale), chicken pox (oatmeal bath), the flu (chicken noodle soup), strep throat (raw honey). but i was cursed with perfect health. “

“ i want you to eat me , i thought as i edged closer. the consuming mother, i thought as i pulled away. i want you to eat me, closer, closer. the consuming mother, further, further. “

oh my god it’s freaky and in a severe motherly issues ways ouuhhh

“ my mother persuaded me to stay thin by insulting me. Ana did it by insulting everyone but me. This absence or rejection felt like an embrace “

“ my mother was what the universe was really about. my mother the sun, my mother the rules, my mother, god herself! my mother the high priestess of food, the religion of our household: abstain, abstain, abstain! “

I don’t know about this one…still debating dnf or powering through