Status Updates From In the Dream House

i do question if i have any sense of someone building intrigue at all since i am usually not a quitter of books and tend to read faster the less i enjoy one. it's not an enjoyable experience. my notes on her short story collection said 'determined to never read her again', should have stuck to it. it's a tangle of me simply not liking her, the middle class vibes of it all and the walls kept intact btw author & reader

“you save the voicemails incase you need to get a restraining order. When you upgrade later they are lost”

there’s a quiet grief in how deeply i relate to machado.

“i would have told him anything, anything at all. but i believed i could see five lights.” there were only four lights.

reflecting on the idea that when you’re suffering abuse and they tell you that is love, you make yourself believe it is love. sometimes believing is the only way the mind knows how to stay alive, and that’s terrifying.