Status Updates From Infinite Splendours

up to part three now.

living as a recluse seems to suit lawrence. even though it was trauma that triggered his inability to work/function in the world, he does seem content (other than when other people approach him).

i remember the ending of this book and how poignant it was but can't remember the last third of his life. it feels important to me now, i want to know what to *expect*

oh god. he gave the boy the drawing (it was a nest) and all his workmates have twigged pretty must instantly that he's fond of the boy. they either think it's a joke or are angry about it. he's gone from blissfully happy to feeling intense shame and looking again at the beam, wondering if he should end things. this has happened so suddenly :(