Status Updates From Ugly, Bitter, and True

Ik kwam hier net n heel klein stukje tekst van tegen en was hooked en ben er net achter gekomen dat het gratis te lezen is en een short story dus ik ben het aankomende 1,5 uur daar mee bezig🫡

“I don’t know what’s going to come out of me,” I told her. “It has to be perfect. It has to be irreproachable in every way.”

“Why?” she said.

“To make up for it,” I said. “To make up for the fact that it’s me.”
THIS IS SO REAL

„If it was going to happen, I didn’t want to be methodical about it. I was waiting for some trigger that would make it inevitable: some fresh humiliation, some galling failure. Something that would make it all fall into place, get the ball rolling organically, negate the need for foresight. I may have also been waiting for an irrefutable reason not to do it at all.“

i have no actual clue where i’m at because it doesn’t have page numbers. I do know that i’m in the beginning though. Anyways, feeling very called out. We think the same.

" I hated psychiatrists, who I’d always found brusque and arrogant and reductive"

LOL I thought it was just me!

"But I’d reached that dark inner place at which a catastrophe seemed less outlandish than a reprieve."

"Being awake was intolerable, and I couldn’t sleep."