Status Updates From I Would Leave Me if I Could

Im reading poetry like crazy rn

“Will she set alarms obsessively
to check in on your breath?
Does she know the ways to touch you
with her lips upon your neck?
Is she agreeable and careless?
Does she answer all your calls?
Because I know you needed someone
who was fine with feeling small.”

“How strange to write about
‘having’
when for so long
I’ve drawn inspiration only from
longing?”

“‘Haven’t told you in a while,
but you’re the reason for it all.
You’re a vital complication
I never seem to resolve.’
I say,
‘Why all this silence?’
You answer,
‘Mind’s been so violent,
a tyrant.’”

“I guess I found it easier
For me to charm a man
‘Cause a woman always crumbled in my hands.”