Status Updates From Sorrow and Bliss

'Martha, he said afterwards, lying next to me. 'Everything is broken and messed up and completely fine. That is what life is.
It's only the ratios that change. Usually on their own. As soon as you think that's it, it's going to be like this forever, they change again.'

“We were suddenly outside, running across the road, hand in hand, towards a bar. We drank champagne, then tequila.
T told Patrick we were like two people who had decided to turn themselves in but, in the moment of surrender, they had realised that as exhausting as it was to keep running and surviving and not give up, the alternative is worse. I said, 'Because the alternative is other people.”

“He said, Martha, expressing opinions about peculiar people is the only thing you care about. And you never ever need to be asked.”
ME TOO GIRL
Ingrid is a good sister to her and always there when needed, when she told her she made her happy but Martha isn’t one who can help her OOF, Ingrid needs to stop having so many kids tho omg, lots to say about motherhood and womanhood

“I said I just wanted to not exist any more and asked if there was something he could give me that would make me go away, but in a way that wouldn't hurt anyone or make a mess. Then I stopped talking because he said I seemed more intelligent than that, sounding frustrated.”
I FEEL SO SAD WHEN SHE IS SAD AGAIN
“I wanted him not to believe me when I said I was fine”
REAL

“You are terrified. Your lungs are closing. The room is moving. Something bad is about to happen. It's already in the room. It is making your back cold. You wait and then it doesn't happen. The thing has left the room it has left you behind. It isn't going to end. There isn't day and night. There isn't time. Only pain, the pressure and the terror that is like a twisted cord running down the centre of your body.”

“how you were meant to feel afterwards. That the afterwards is why sex exists.”
Aftercare is really everything
They are happy now and I really do like Patrick and learning more about him and his childhood
Even if Martha doesn’t know how to be a wife and is scared, he seems very calm and caring.

Actually this book is slowly growing on me