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“Normal people say, I can’t imagine feeling so bad I’d genuinely want to die. I do not try and explain that it isn’t that you want to die. It is that you know you are not supposed to be alive, feeling a tiredness that powders your bones, a tiredness with so much fear. The unnatural fact of living is something you must eventually fix.”

“Nobody said anything. The music was extraordinary.
The sensation of it was physical, like warm water being washed over a wound, agonising and cleansing and curative.”