Status Updates From In Memoriam

“if gaunt had been a girl, I should have married him in an instant” oh im not hungry

EHAT THE FREAK OK SO NUMBER 1 GAUNT IS ALIVE WHATTTTTTT OH MY GOSH OH MY GOSH PH MY GOSH
number 2 ELLWOOD? NO he has changed so much in the most depressing way I have ever read he just lost all of the joy in his life and the “he’s tired” line oh no im going to cry
i cannot stop thinking about how before Gaunt “died” how him and Elly were so relived to see the other. not a minute goes by i dont think of it

what. what. what. what. what. what. NO PLEASE NO GOD NO PLEASE NO NO NO NO NO NO

"if ellwood were a girl, he might have held his hand, kissed his temple. he might have bought a ring and tied their lives together" i just realized even if both lived VERY long lives gay marriage atill would never be legalized in their lives

"every poem had been written about him, every song composed for him" whenever gaunt says “Elly”… bro i cant. this is the most painful miscommunication trope (good way) i have ever read and the yearning is causing ME pain "sometimes he imagined what gaunt would look like when he was old, and knew with dizzying certainty that he would love him even when Gaunt was balding and wizened and spent" istg is he dies

I think this is the first time I have ever read a book that contained this amount of yearning but cannot distinguish who is “yearning” more which is one thing about this book I find the most beautiful.
The war and its effect in the characters is so painfully well written and how the other is their only “tie” to who they used to be just really shows how this book will inevitably break me in the end.