Status Updates From Where Time Stands Still

It’s not remembering how to braid your hair while looking at yourself in the mirror, and not realizing that when it is snowing outside, it means it’s winter. It’s looking at your husband but seeing a stranger. It’s forgetting how to speak, but weirdly remembering the lyrics to a song you knew decades ago. It’s shattered souls and broken hearts and sniffles hidden behind smiles.

this is devastating.

Alzheimer’s isn’t a cute disease. It isn’t only forgetting about your first elementary school crush’s name or the place you visited with your parents when you were five or the meal you ate for dinner yesterday. It’s agitation and aggressiveness and bursts of sadness that break the hearts of everyone around you.

In this moment, I realize if there was one thing I could wish for, it would be to live in a world where time stands still. Where Aaron and I could keep living without growing old, our bodies stuck in this place in time. This way, nothing would stop me from begging him to stay with me. I wouldn’t ever get sick. He’d never have to say goodbye. We could just be, together.

💔💔

genuinely forgot i was reading this book

“Maybe not all love stories need to last a lifetime. Maybe the most beautiful ones are the ones that develop despite the fact that they won’t.” 🥺 “I told you years ago that I wasn’t bitter about what life gave me, and I still believe that. Because it gave me you. And for a minute or a lifetime, it will always have been worth it.”
😭 “I promise to remember everything.”

“And what I’m sure of is that I’d much rather have the certainty of you than the possibility of something I might never want.” 😭 “I don’t care that you don’t love yourself enough to believe I’d be lucky to be with you.” A kiss is pressed to the crown of my hair. “We’ll work on that, and in the meantime, I’ll love you enough for the both of us.” 🫵🏼🩷✨🦋

“If you didn’t care for me, I would let you go. But Wren, I know you’re in love with me, and guess what? I’m so fucking in love with you too. So no, I’m not letting you go. You run away, I’m right behind you.” ❤️ “because I can tell you I’ll never be able to love anyone the way I love you.” 🥺

“She’s a drug, and what can an addict to but ask for his next fix?” 🫵🏼 “Are you blind, or what? That girl looks at you like you’re made of gold,” 😭 “The way he says my name feels like a prayer.” 😮‍💨 “You’ve understood the truth. That the depth of one’s love does not equal to the time it will last. And that’s exactly how I feel about you.” 🤍

“What do you want me to say, Wren? That I’m sorry for loving you? Because I’m not.” 😩 “She came into my life like a warm spring wind. One that makes you realize what you’ve been missing for months. You think you’re okay with the winter temperatures until you step outside and are hit with the hint of warmth that spring and summer will bring” ✨✨

“Yes, this is about her. When has anything not been about her? It’s like I can’t remember a time when she didn’t occupy my every thought. When I woke up in the morning and my first thought wasn’t, I hope I see Wren today” 🩷 “God, how can you not see I’m so in love with you I can hardly breathe?” 🥹

“Aaron laughs, the sound warmer than anything I’ve ever experienced” ⭐️ “Except that what we just shared wasn’t just a kiss. It was the kiss. The one that makes you feel like the earth has stopped spinning. The one that makes you wonder how you ever thought kissing someone other than them was nice” 🦋

🥱🥱

this doesn’t feel like a romamce booo yet. but that’s making me like it more

went in blind and haven’t regretted it yet! 😝