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Procrastination has become its own solution—a tool I can use to push myself so close to disaster that I become terrified and flee towards success.

A more troubling matter is the day-to-day activities that don’t have massive consequences when I neglect to do them. I haven’t figured out how to solve the problem in a normal way, but I did learn how to make myself feel so ashamed that I’m willing to take action.

Most people can motivate themselves to do things simply by knowing that those things need to be done, but not me. For me motivation is this horrible scary game where I try to make myself do something while I actively avoid doing it. If I win, I have to do something I don’t wanna do. If I lose, I’m one step closer to ruining my entire life and I never know whether I’m going to win or lose until the last second.