Status Updates From Behind Closed Doors

“Perhaps you’re a permanent mark made on my heart from the flame burning out so suddenly, so quickly — just like a star dying leaves a black hole behind.”

okay this book is making me feel ✨things✨ 😭😭

“The best writing ‬does not tell you how to feel‬ but rather reminds you‬ what you already felt.”

“I suffocate:
From the memory of you.”

actually crying 😭

“I once was whole.Now I am carved puzzle pieces that no longer fit together as one.How do I fix myself when my pieces no longer belong?”

damn felt that one deep in my bones

“Your journey is yours and yours alone. Do not compare yourself to the lion, who rules a kingdom, or the fire, who burns a shining light, or the hawk, who flies free, or the wise oak, standing tall in her fortress. Walk in your own shoes and inhale the beauty that you are the only one who will ever live these beautiful highs and these gut wrenching lows. Your journey is yours and yours alone. — K”

“They always told me to trust. Have faith in the path of life,‬ in the heartbreak and the sorrow‬, the gut-wrenching pain,‬ the insecurities ‬ of feeling not enough. ‬ “Everything happens for a reason,” they said‬, and I would have listened‬ if I’d have known all along‬ the reason ‬ was‬ you. ‬ — K”

“If I could write an apology to anyone, it would be to younger me: I’m sorry I didn’t see your worth or you trying so hard. I’m sorry I gave comfort to others before ever holding you. I’m sorry I belittled you and compared you to other girls. I’m sorry I didn’t tell you that you were good enough. I love you. I’m sorry. You can heal now, and I’ll hold your hand. I’ll never abandon you again.”

“Every happy beginning didn’t come with a happy end. Yet that doesn’t mean beauty didn’t live somewhere within the middle. Quietly, my mind rereads our in-betweens. — B”

“if you say you want to keep me, please promise you’ll stay and help remove the clutter of beliefs that my love runs people away — B”

“Sometimes I wish I could skip to the next time in my life when I’m completely, blissfully happy and in love. But then I remember that this pain is part of the process, too. It’s important. It has to be felt, heartache — just the same as joy.”

“you can’t put back together the pieces of me that you snipped away hoping that I would be whole again and love you the same way — B”

“Some stories do not get a happily ever after. Some end on page 38, instead, the place where you only expect it to get better, the chapter that seemed to lead to another, the paragraph that seemed to point to forever, but it doesn’t. And those stories are the hardest to live, the hardest to let go of, and the hardest to forget. But we love to read them, anyway.”

“If I would have known the last time you held me in your arms was the very last time, I would have held you tighter, and I don’t think I ever would have let you go.”
Heavy on this line.

wow.

“I liked you better when I thought you were the man you said you were, not the one you hid beneath those lies. — K”