Status Updates From Brick Lane

Sadly my life is too short to spend on books unless I’m actively enjoying it, sorry to the author, the font isn’t great. If I hadn’t been poisoned by the civil service since they wanted to give me in part the passing of the prophet (saws) and being sent to execution block, I might have tried longer to read, but time is short, so I can’t enjoy or try as much I’d like to while I wait for the remainder.

I came into the world with wires going through my nose, ears and mouth and the British state, that didn’t repeal the death penalty, for speaking (about being assaulted), wants me to leave the world with a rope around my neck and with blood pouring down my legs combining the start and end of wuthering heights. The change was made to psychologically torture me for what they have planned for. This is Britain.

I love the plain cheese sandwiches without the crusts, the ones we got in school trips to museums etc I loved squeezing it together before I ate. Plain cheese and bread. Yum. Love an egg mayo sandwich as well.

He said black people were meant for slavery :/ that the strong ones fetched the highest price. Today’s modern slavery includes trafficking, the trade, kidneys and hearts in exchange for keeling the slave. No accidental killing that’s deliberately planned expiates sins accrued from hitting a slave. Raises questions of liability regarding those who were aware what would happen, did not warn & consumed the profits.

I’ve been called a traitor since last year; received threats regarding blinding my eyes through serious violence. Here it says salt water quoting Shakespeare for traitorsc May autocorrect. “Nay, if I turn my eyes upon myself, I find myself a traitor with the rest.” They betrayed everyone, have been, for nearly three decades. Betrayal isn’t more valid based on who’s being betrayed. The people matter too.

Gulab jamun is delicious. Jelabee is a bit much. Halwa is good too with cream. Barfi is really good too. I really shouldn’t but baklava as well although that’s more Turkish but still so good, risky but still.

Idk about gourd, okra curry is delicious. Pumpkin with beef curry is so good. Sweet potato pie is really good, pumpkin pie. I wonder a pumpkin, spinach, aubergine pie or curry, that sounds delicious. What about okra pie, okra with pumpkin. Don’t think pumpkin and okra would go well in a curry. But it’d be fun to try. Pumpkin, aubergine that doesn’t sound like it’ll go together. Pumpkin, spinach curry yes.

Idk how true that statement is re white people just leaving children alone to be beaten. I think it’s universal. Bystander effect can become the bandwagon effect too. I remember a black woman & her child in a car were going the right way on a one way road, South Asian the wrong way, in a predominately South Asian area, they began bullying her. It felt racist, subhana’Allah, I did speak up, sad for the child.

“A television serial dangles from a window like a suicide.” So that’s the source, inspiration, to intimidate. Why they got all these companies and law enforcement to suggest mental health issues for jumping from topic to topic or being upset about harm being done, trivialising and mocking suicide and exploiting mental health to use it as a cover and disguise murder as suicide.

It’s a real shame that if they didn’t have capital punishment penalty, this country w/o it is actually a great place even with the disability discrimination. The NHS, the education system, the public services - who need more than when it comes to informed consent but otherwise really good service - so grateful to call this my country. If they had adjusted & braved those direct conversations, it is a good country.

Qur’an says to not spy on one another. Surveillance goes against this, no one should assist or help maintain its operations. Advanced functional mri can access your body & its intimate history whilst depriving you of intimacy itself. It’s a twofold injustice. I wouldn’t forgive for those who knew what was coming unless they exp the same absence of intimacy, inc self, for the same amount of time, not later, now.

Guard yourself from the evil eye because I’m not okay with anyone who had been involved, barring the young, when it comes to children, mentions when it comes to having kids isn’t nice. They didn’t warn me out of cowardice/wanting to gain/jealousy. Retribution in kind can’t be gained bc ppl are benefiting so I beg God for my rights, I don’t forgive unless they exp the same for the same time. Not later. Now.

“By the light of day, and by the dark of night, your Lord has not forsaken you, nor does He abhor you. The life to come holds a richer prize for you than this present life. You shall be gratified with what your Lord will give you. Did He not find you in error and guide you?”

state ‘altered’ making barren a Muslim w/o her knowledge & consent via nhs etc so she wouldn’t be able to get in the way of their CS couple. God said there is no change in His creation. Thus the call from Birmingham before this passage with birthdate attached to ‘the world’, Bham reps a white male CS, they assigned a Muslim person as the world via tarot, to say couldn’t stop this couple getting together.

The book says pink yellow on this page & how white women wear clinging trousers with their feet cut out. As part of torture before execution they’ve planned for me, the British civil service & institution sent a threat with pink (the colour they gave me w/o my knowledge for approx a year, it’s not my fave colour) shoes as I approached this page to say one act is cutting off my feet because I’m a “traitor”.

Ooo, no. Elders should be respected.

One of the most evil things about states who do surveillance, digital, live, fingerprints, 1984, brain interface, lab experiments, biometrics all of it, is that in their pursuit of evil and revenge, they deprive that person of company and others who may have enjoyed their company. They remove love from this world and begin dictating love for others as if they’re God. I’m not talking romance alone, but everything.

The act in itself was racism in its clearest form, don’t redirect. It would never do these things to a white citizen. It clearly sees that natural citizenship doesn’t belong to non white people unless they comply/sellout those who didn’t ‘comply’ then they’re called good immigrants, we’re not immigrants, we’re born here. This is our country too. Racism is well and alive.