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“People are alone on this earth - that's the problem! They say that the sun gives life to the universe. The sun will rise and - look at it, isn't it dead? Everything is dead, the dead are everywhere. There are only people, and all around them is silence - that's the earth. 'People, love one another' - who said that? Whose commandment is that?”

“You don't know with what paradise I would have surrounded you. The paradise was in my soul! Well, you wouldn't have loved me - so be it, what of it?
And if you had fallen in love with somebody else - well, so be it, so be it! You would have walked with him and laughed, while I looked on from the other side of the street ... Oh, let it be anything, anything, if only she would open her eyes just once!“

“Ah, let her, let her despise me, for her whole life even, but let her live, live!”

“to love meant to love completely”

“But my hatred could never ripen and take root in my soul.”

“And even though nobody knew about it, she knew about it, and that was everything for me, because she was everything to me, all my hopes for the future in my dreams! She was the only person whom I was preparing for myself, and I didn't need another - and now she knew everything; at least she knew that she had unjustly hurried to join my enemies.”

“Oh, I was never liked, even in school. I've never been liked anywhere. (…) I mention this because there's nothing more exasperating and intolerable than to be ruined by an incident that might or might not have happened, by an unfortunate chain of circumstances that might have passed over, like a cloud.”

“what's the use of praying - it's nothing but a sin!”

“I was lost, I myself was lost, so whom could I have saved?”

“Why, then, did I accept death? But I will ask: What need would I have of lifc after the revolver was raised against me by the being whom I adored?”

“They say that people standing on a height are drawn downwards, as it were, of their own accord, to the abyss. I think that a lot of suicides and murders have been committed merely because the revolver was already in hand. There's an abyss here as well, there's a forty-five-degree slope down which you can't help but slide and something relentlessly challenges you to pull the trigger.”

“When she starts creating an uproar, even if she crosses the line, it's plain to see that she's only hurting herself, egging herself on and will be the first unable to cope with her feelings of modesty and shame.
That's why they sometimes go too far. A soul accustomed to debauchery, on the contrary, always softens it, making it more vile, but in a guise of decorum and decency that claims to be superior to you.”

“What's done is done. Take courage, man, and be proud! It's not you who are to blame! ...
Now then, I'll tell the truth, I won't be afraid to stand face to face with the truth”

“Why, why did we from the very beginning choose to be silent?”