Status Updates From I'm a Fan

This is a book club book and I am struggling to get through the first half. Not only is it dry but it’s a lot going on and nothing at the same time. I’m trying but I’m not a fan at the moment

He says this to me occasionally, peering at a future from a safe distance but leaves me squinting towards the horizon unsure if the shimmer is water or a mirage

How can he know me when he’s so committed to misunderstanding me.