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“What does brave look like when the map is your skull and the path cuts through memory? If courage is a choice, where do you aim it? At the knife, at the waiting, or at the life that might be different after?”

cool cool cool cool cool cool 🫠

you did not….pls just don’t

“If this is all I get, then I’ll love him fiercely enough to echo across all of time. I’ll hold him close enough to leave marks on eternity, and when the fall comes, I’ll face it knowing this:
I loved him once without knowing why.
I love him now knowing everything.
I’ll love him always, even when time steals him away again.”

this is bullshit. i have an hour left & i am panicking 😭😭

i'm very scared. i really hope what might happen...doesn't happen rn omg

“Our lips meet, and I’m home.” STFUUUU GAHHHH

okay...now that i've let things play out to where we are...i honestly have NO CLUE how tal came up with this story line...or HOW things came to torey the way they did...but like i need things to work out pls for the love of god

this can not be happening. you have got to be fucking kidding me right now.

WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK IS HAPPENING OMG NO THIS IS SO PAINFUL WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TAL??? like no. no no no no no!!!

i’m honestly so scared to keep reading because i’m already so sad idk if i can go at this alone

i was having a crisis literally 2 chapters in & now i’m only on the 3rd & i wanna cry from anxiety

y'all….i JUSTTTT started this book & its going to fucking kill me…i just know…& im on chapter fucking 2!!!

made it exactly 50% before having to go to work (where i can’t read this) & i am OBSESSEDDD with jude. how are both he & violet not “interested” in sex…yet have THE BEST chemistry!!?? like yet another amazing boot riding scene?! yes pls

i would like it known…this is an EPIC LENGTH fic yall. it’s 865k words!! equaling approx 3460 pages! that means i’ve read about 700k words & 2800 pages at only 81%!! & every. single. one. is pure pain & heartache 🙂🙂🙂

finishing out day mf 6 of this fic at 60% & i feel like we finally getting towards….fuck. idk i wanted to say happiness but that def ain’t it. 🙂😂

ha ha great progress ashlee. lol i did read the alt ending that’s suggested to read after chapter 31 tho. & welp. let’s just say im elated that’s not real. 😂😂🙃🙃 yes i realize how delusional that sounds.

help. i’m still at the restaurant.


…i could be going back to this…but im stalling instead from anxiousness 🙃🙃

i can't breathe without thinking of this fic. but i also never want to look at this fic OR ANY OTHER ever again in my entire life. it just...it hurts. all over. everywhere.

i. seriously. question my life choices 🙂🫠💔

...i want to yeet myself off a bridge for knowing how this plot loosely goes. 🙃🙃🙃

i finished it. & i wanna vomit. it was so amazing. these boys broke themselves, they broke each other, they broke more people…they broke ME!! it was a masterpiece 😭😭😭

ohhhh holllyyyyy fcknnn shit!!! noooo!! this is bad. this is real real bad yall! 😭😭😭😭

**maybe** spoiler warning idfk but it’s not a big deal mmkay…

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i’m starting to think our stoic professor here’s got himself a little ear fetish. 😏😈🤭😂😂

hehehe 🤭🤭🤭 these boys are sooooo down bad!!!

i told myself i was just taking a peek…that much a slow physical eyeball reader…that there’s no way i’d read this whole thing before it released anyways….🫠🫠🫠 & welp. here we are. 😂😂😂

bahaha one scene goes a little like this:
“his forehead starts to lower to mine & i headbutt him. ‘get the fuck off me & don’t kiss me again.’
he chuckles, the sound vibrating against my throat. ‘you’re right. this is so gay & we’re definitely straight.’”
😂😂😂😂😂 at least we getting aware 😂😂😂

hehehehehehe 🤭🤭🤭🤭 kayden is sooooo mean to gareth yall!! he’s gonna be a total daddy!! i’m literally only 8 chapters in & it’s already a WILD FCKN RIDEEEEE!! omggg! hahaha oh..& did i mention…they’re BOTH “not gay!” & “totally straight” 😏😏😏😏 lol alright boys. hahaa sure

i just wanted to start sneaky peeking while i wait for the audio to release in 5 days...& two chapters in & im completely & utterly SHOOKETH & SMITTEN!! 🤭🤭🤭 hehehe these two are going to be so much fun i can't even!