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This book is full of him questioning why the questioners ask those type of questions lol. At least reading the speech (not the Q&A) is pretty meditating or calming. Can be quite repetitive at times, but so far no problems. Don't I read it as slow as how JK speaks...

This book was an extension of myself that had always been on my bag circa 2016-18 but I somehow never read it cover to cover. It's awfully damaged and I felt sorry looking at it. The book sent me to sleep, transported to a peaceful state of mind. Back then I was fully aware I have no interest to "finish" it orderly. I may actually had read the entire thing, or I hadn't? It was a good company though, I may try again.

Wallace predicted the obsession on self-enhancement post emergence of video calls & basically drolls over TikTok/Instagram vanities. Except, not in the form of beauty filters as we know today... More horrible and impractical and laughable... Infinite Jest, a comedy book...

She starts with a photograph we didn't see, she helps us to see it. She recalls the era: the thoughts and collective memories that attached to the photograph. That is how she recounts her life, pasted in a giant landscape. She isn't the Everything in this autobiography, she is among everything. So apparently, it is an auto-socio-biography.

What happened in the past one week: read on 2 unreliable characters whose narrations seem to be fucked by acute loneliness.

What happened in the past one week: read on 2 unreliable characters whom narrations seem to be fucked by acute loneliness.

Mark Fisher ini kayaknya satu dari sedikit cultural theorist yang sejak awal ga ada nge-trigger perasaan terintimidasi. Kenal namanya dari The Weird and The Eerie karena topik buku tersebut unik. Yang dia bahas seru-seru tapi serius, jadi tetep bacanya pelan-pelan.

So much to learn in this book! Manusia, dalam rangka menolak keniscayaan bahwa ia akan mati, menjalankan proyek dalam hidupnya yang bisa membuat dia merasa besar/berguna/bermakna/tidak dilupakan yang disebut causa sui project. Proyek ini bisa jadi sesederhana menjadi orang tua yang baik hingga mengubah dunia dsb. Yang jadi masalah adalah proyek yang dikuasai ego dan keangkuhan manusianya sehingga bersifat merusak.

The process going through this book like this:
I read several pages, pause and think, formulate a defense, continue to read then get slammed by further punishing remarks (which in essence saying, “you are doomed!”)

So, I caught in a “healthy-minded argument” trap as the book called it or that I am, just like everyone in general, “hate of every knowledge that could cause me (us) to despise ourselves.”

TIL that economics isn’t such a dismal science after all