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finished the 6th part (dear comrade). i don't have much to say other than I'm sad. Jude, my shayla :(

FINALLY finishing this today TRUST, i am not ready

finished part 5 (the happy years) and am reporting the years weren't that happy, but they did get better. ALSO, WHY DID IT END LIKE THAT AM I DUMB? i enjoy willem and judes relationship so much, it was great to see its ups and downs throughout this part. they are two of my favourite characters in this book so i find great pleasure in reading them. i know people cry at the end of this book so EEEKK (i won't but EEEEK)

"he was worried because to be alive was to worry."

WILLEM AND JUDE TOGETHER I PRAYED FOR TIMES LIKE THIS

finished part 4 (the axiom of equality). i am simultaneously so mad and so upset at what was addressed in this part. jude, my baby, he—as we're finding out—has been through so much trauma and it's honestly really sickening to read. by far the saddest part. i feel so bad for him. he was a kid. next part is called the happy years but im not hopeful that it's going to be happy, knowing where the book has been going.

he was just a kid :( pedophiles are the worst people on this planet.

HE WAS NINE..

officially halfway. im very sad.

jude :(

im not getting sad, just very angry, FUCK YOU CALEB.

"But as much as he fears sex, he also wants to be touched, he wants to feel someone else's hands on him, although the thought of that too terrifies him."

another one thankyou!! im relating to jude a bit too much.

not the friendship ending with jb (i 100% get it but it's still sad to me) (he shouldn't have done that to jude)

finished part 3 (vanities)!! glad to see more of everyone's perspectives, espically jb's cause i feel like we hadnt seen him in a while. on to part 4 (the axiom of equality), which ive heard is where it gets sad IM NOT READY. i really don't know if ill cry or not but here we gooooo!! let's see if something can actually make me cry.

"Are you happy? he once asked Jude (they must have been drunk).
"I don't think happiness is for me, Jude had said at last,"

he's so relatable to me im crying

just finished part 2 (the postman) and let me just say i loved it!! i loved seeing judes pov for once, i love him so dearly. i love harold and willem too, i cried!! they are really vague when it comes to stuff that has happened to jude and its killing me, its going to hurt so bad when we actually find it out. this part has really made me love the book. I'm super invested now if i wasn't before, #lovingit.

i just love Harold so much i could start crying

"Fear of everyone else; hatred for himself."

Is it bad I'm relating to Jude??

"He was pleasantly exhausted, but then he was always exhausted those days: it was as if the daily effort it took to appear normal was so great that it left energy for little else."

VERY relatable !!!

finally jude pov!!

first part (lispenard street) done!!

we still know very little about jude, i feel like later we are going to find out and it's going to be something really sad. i love all the characters, i don't think i have a favourite, i like them all and getting to see their individual lives but also their friendship. i said this before but its very well written, i feel kinda dumb reading it tbh. anyway that's it for now!!

enjoying so far, well written!! it's setting in how long this is actually going to take me to read (spoiler alert, that's a long time). i like getting to know the four main characters, i feel like we know the least about jude but maybe that's for the better for now!! anyway just a quick little update!!

finally starting !!

i honestly don't think im ready to read this but im going to anyway.
also lord this is going to take me so long to read 😭😭

LAST PART!!! i can't wait to find out what happens i genuinely have no guesses right now.

i wanna know what happened so bad the suspense is killing me

WHATTTTTTTT

OHHH GAGGGG

possible spoilers but i have three theories so far



- jake did something to tegan (most likely one!!)
- marcus did something to tegan (unlikely so far)
- jess hit tegan with her car (i hope it isn't this one)

last husband !!