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i actually am literally feeling so ill listening to this i wanna stop u are not tasteful people

BRUH. you'd think an AUTHOR would be able to accurately define the word the entirety of your plot hinges on. that is not what limerence is thank u! eughhghghhghhghjh i will finish this thing despite it all. imagining them both as girls until further notice

started this on the drive yday and unfortunately must finish...kinda pmo but not irredeemable

okay YES the edits got to me. reading so i can get to heated rivalry and watch the show hiiiiiii >_<

"she would be Daughter forever, feet on the dashboard, lollipop stashed in one cheek, waiting for the doors of the bank to swing open and spit out the correct mother: hers."

"a person does not know if her mother likes her." well...

with tears in my eyes i know this is not the intended response but it's killing me i have to get back to school

welp! i already know who i am of the bunch -_-

it is about time for the 2 annual re-reads; the bell jar will begin either thursday or friday, and the secret history will be a january endeavor, as has been the tradition for at least the last 2 years i believe? seems to work quite well for me, time-wise. a constant amid the changing of years, if you will

I THINK I LIKE BIRDS BETTER ANYWAY .
it is a good thing im in the back rn bc i am Crying!

eat ur heart out, brave little toaster

okay we are FINALLY getting back on track esp now i can access NG's browser reader @work now. locking thee eff in <3 expect a bunch of ARC reads comin up soon!!!! so exciting!!!!

everyone wants to be the secret history so bad it's embarrassing. you people need to move on and put whatever mangled and diluted understanding of "dark academia" to rest! you are not and will never be That Girl i'm sorry.

if i may be honest, i am EXTREMELY tired of books that posture as having something ~dark~ to say about women and femininity being ~dangerous~ when in actuality, the book ends up having next to nothing (if anything at all) worth saying, simply regurgitating "disturbing" plotpoints and aesthetics of dark academia or "unhinged women" types without being good enough to cement itself in any genre at all.

ok so yeah maybe i'm reading novels based almost exclusively set at universities as of late. no reason for that. not at all! it's not destroying me to be away from formal academia no i'm normal ,

"she probably named me for you" oh im going to be sick actually i need to run a lap and maybe one of those oxygen masks too

YOU WERE MADE THE SAME WAY AS THE ANGELS.

oh im runnin g. sprinting to b&n to pick this up as soon as i get off work im crumbling!!!!!

"we were going to go nuclear for you."

no yeah i don't resonate at all. i've never felt like icarus. definitely not when i took a "break" from my high school friend group i hadn't felt like i fit in with bc i was depressed and confused, only to reenter the group after a terrible year and be met with the fiercest and most overwhelming love and generosity i've ever witnessed in people. certainly not i haha!

im going to stop (im probably not going to stop. sorry) but oh no. like orpheus losing eurydice oh NO

TURN HIM HOLY AGAINNNNN AVE MARIA.

this is so tender i'm tearing up oh man. patroclus and achilles i see you everywhere

last update 4now sry im spamming the tl but.... i'm gonna have to stop reading this at work T_T i'm getting too visibly giddy

"you look like i just punched you in the stomach" YEAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH icarus i get u........ we are so twin

it's happeningggggg :']]]

:( i'm gonna love this and it's gonna hurt me

dnfed lucky day which is so unfortunate bc i was enjoying it and am still interested in the story...but one specific recurring beat that just pmo T_T sry but it just bothers me toooooo much :/

like idk how i'm still shocked. she says, "looking back now, i see that this might have been a good time to start telling the truth. . . .but i was not remotely capable of such conversations. i had no skills for that kind of rigorous honesty, nor any courage for it." there's actually too much to break down here. i think i should start a yt channel to bitch about this book specifically

i'm not going to keep harping on it but there is a brand of ""poetry"" influenced by instagram and r*** k*** that has taken a subsection of people by storm that is. just so abhorrent. there's no rhythm to it. you're just writing sentences and placing line breaks in frankly baffling places. if you're writing poetry for publication, please for the love of GOD start trying. it's absurd what publishers let through.

"so it is worth questioning, in every partnership, 'who is playing the traditional role of the woman here?''"

hey girl so i fear it literally is not. crazy to have been in a relationship where ur both women and still harbor that opinion. also crazy to frame the question ur REALLY asking, which is: which person is more submissive, giving, etc etc. which is rooted in the misogyny you claim to so abhor!!!

i just can't stand the instagram style "" poetry "" in here. these are just sentences with incomprehensibly placed line breaks.

"it has never been the policy / of the Great Mother of Destiny / to stop me / from pursuing / any of my wildest schemes and ideas." like i just. sorry that's barely poetry and it's not good. yes i am a hater. sorry (not really, do better!)