essie. > Recent Status Updates

yeah i’m calling it quits 3 yrs after starting it. sorry but i just don’t like theo.

he writes like a poet; i think this book would’ve been better as a verse novella.

i’m scared this book might fuck me up rn.

i wish i could take a shot for every time her half hungarian side is mentioned bc i can’t finish this damn book sober

“it’s partly true, too, but it is the all true. people always think something’s all true.”

“it’s partly true, too, but it is the all true. people always think something’s all true.”

rereading after dnf on pg 136 (i do love the book tho)

cinder… girl… why would u go to the castle when the one woman u were warned to stay away from was literally right there and then even attempt to ENTER the damn castle like just being in its proximity wasn’t enough. idc how “urgently” u had to bring prince kai his droid 😒

taking this book off dnf and giving it another chance. i started it in freshman year because my chem teacher said it was actually his favorite book but i literally never hit past the first 100 pages so now imma try to finish it before i graduate coz i needa return it asap

UR MAKING ME SO MAD!!!!! 😡😡😡😡

WHY DO FAKE DATERS ALWAYS FEEL THE NEED TO EXPOSE THAT THEY WERE FAKE DATING??!??!!

AGHHH i love it

is beatrice fucking stupid? how does she not notice anything going on around her? like obviously caleb was gonna switch factions to, he said “WE need to think of ourselves.”

“i’m pressing my nose back against his ribs, inhaling again.
‘creep,’ he says mildly.”

i literally can’t tell if this is cute or creepy asl :(

carrie is so insufferable? she’s like a fucking child

the dialogue in this book is so fucking good im gonna melt

“dear heart”

“make a promise”

…”When depression swallows small pieces of your heart, make a promise,
"Today,
I want to create
something beautiful.
A poem.
A song.
A cake.”…

“the best place” is also good

“no permission needed” is the first poem i like so far. might’ve done something to me if i read it while i was depressed

mateo BE SO FUCKINF SERIOUS U COULDN’T REMEMBER THE ONE THING IN THE HOUSE THAT WOULD KILL U?? LIKE NOT ONLY SHOULD U HAVE STAYED AWAY FROM FIRE IN THE FIRST PLACE, BUT ALSO THE FACT THAT THE FUCKING BURNER WAS BROKEN?!! survival of the fittest atp

okay i’m literally commenting every second but i love the overlap of delilah seeing mateo and rufus at chelsea

omg bye i knew it. rufus is literally talking abt how he’s the one who left his family—got out of the sinking car and ran away. he’s def not gonna let mateo die alone.

(curse you goodreads word count) but since the book is called “they both die at the end”, i’m guessing rufus will die somehow aswell, maybe because they were supposed to die together. maybe even in an attempt to save him, idk i’m just theorizing and i kinda hope i’m right but we’ll see.

omg i noticed when that girl, delilah i think her name was, said she was mad at that guy for making a prank call, but right now when rufus slept on the train on the way back from the cemetery, he didn’t have any dreams while mateo had a nightmare in the way there, symbolizing that rufus would be fine but mateo would die. also from the fact that mateo was called by a girl while rufus by a guy.

OKAYY LINAAAAA THAT SPEECH WAS BEAUTIFUL

WHY ARENT MEN LIKE THIS REALLLL?!?!! FUCKKKKKK 😫😫😫😫

AARON BLACKFORD HAVE MY FUCKINF BABIESSSSS ❤️🫦🫦😫😫😫😤❤️🫶🫶😫

stayed up all night listening to this one and now i have school 😁

i’m getting so tired of her baby act during this fever arc, like y are u behaving like a toddler ur 28 idc how sick u are 😭