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It’s difficult to see or plan for a long future when you couldn’t see any future for yourself when growing up.

From its inception, trans healthcare has been an ideological battleground. Medical transition, contraception and abortion care should be about body autonomy. We should have the right to choose what is the best option for our own bodies and mental health. But instead, when we try to access vital healthcare, we are met by gatekeepers who think they know better than we do about our bodies.

We are forced to live childhoods alien to us and become girl to woman, boy to man. We are told not to ask, not to question, that this is just a phase, to push ourselves down, to damage, bend and break ourselves until we fit. To be trans is to face violence while others ‘yaaas queen’ and ‘sashay away’ using the language of our ancestors while ignoring our struggle.

"And so the question that took up the most space as I was entering this gay new world was: if gay culture is seemingly so phallo-centric, where do I fit, if indeed I fit at all?"

I cannot help but feel that I was not born in the wrong body but rather the wrong world. A world that teaches us that transness is a synonym for ‘broken body’ and therefore needs to be fixed. I do not need to be fixed. No trans person needs to be fixed. We are beautiful the way we are – whether we decide that surgery and hormones are the right path for us or not.

Saying that ‘I exist as’ rather than the commonly used phrase ‘I identify as’ is important to me. ‘I identify as’ suggests that there is something to debate or there is something to uncover – that there is an untruth. As though it is something we believe about ourselves but others don’t have to see, acknowledge or respect.


THANK YOU

It was strange to live in fear when there was nothing there to hurt him. He’d learnt to trust that emotion to keep him safe. Stay still, it would say. Be quiet. Don’t ask for anything.

My psychologist would love this book...

😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

I love how this series subvert the very colonialist notion repeated ad nauseam in literature in which the North is civilised whereas the South is barbaric. Here, the South is synonym with empathy, understanding, caring, freedom, gentleness, community. And the North is all the prudeness, hierarchical nonsense, omega oppression (aka patriarchy), cruelty, and general bullshit.

Yes yes, showing your knees is SO SCANDALOUS

Look, were I abducted by a long-haired hunky alien with wings and a tail with a creator soul that claims I'm the only person in the universe for him, I wouldn't be cuddling my cat and avoiding him at all cost. I would probably bend over faster than light speed.

I don't know if I can keep on reading this. Wtf.

This dude is a proper A-HOLE!
I wanna throttle him.

😭😭😭

This fucking alpha better be groveling for the next 75% of the book.

Alexandra never disappoints

I'm not sure if this is a masterpiece or I'm just insane.

Wtf am I reading?

Friends to lovers is The Superior Trope™️.

Is it normal to cry every three chapters?

Nik Knight is great at comedy, but their emotional writing range is amazing.

I am not crying.
I. AM. NOT.




OK, YES. I am. They are becoming so close and so supportive and so cute. They hugged and it made me cry.

“He looks European. You know, as a human.”

“I think he came from overseas. But also, that’s ridiculous. You can’t look European. There are, like, fifty countries in Europe.”

THANK YOU.

Why start on book n°4, you might ask? Because it was free on a SYKD and I just love nerds. What can I say.

Authors:
PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF SATAN, STOP REFERENCING JOANNE K.
This trans goblin would appreciate it SO MUCH.

Someone stop me please.
Keep me away from Anna and her taboo stories.

How these two walk around with a constant boner will remain a mystery?
But all that blood away from the brain must be why they're behaving like that.
😆

This is giving Dark Jock but make it stalkerish, and I'm not opposed.

This book is beautiful.
So much longing 🥹

Almost 600 pages. Wish me luck.

“Aiden, what better way to achieve retribution against someone who harms you than to go on to heal and live a full, rich life? That is the best vengeance against the monsters in the world—to not let them win,” she said.

Omfg I'm dying 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣