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i really want to love this book but it is so boring

god i’m finally finishing this book

il libro mi sta prendendo un casino ma il razzismo e la xenofobia completamente a caso mi sta per rompere i coglioni

ELEONORA C. CARUSO te le puoi evitare le frasi tipo “non so se è cinese o giapponese, è julian l’esperto” o sui “palestinesi che non dovrebbero fare gli stronzi” o su erika che “aveva quell’attitudine meridionale a riversare i suoi bisogni affettivi su chiunque”

“con davide è diverso, quando ci lasceremo sarà epico”
“quindi sta pensando di lasciarlo?”
“prima o poi. stiamo insieme da meno di un anno, è ancora presto. devo essere sicuro che ne sarò distrutto”
“quindi anche lei usa gli altri per farsi del male”
“io voglio sentire qualcosa. non è quello che vogliono tutti? solo sentire qualcosa?”

...madonna siamo solo a pagina 41

he had sex with two gay men and he didn’t tell them he was trans and they didn’t even flinch q.q like they didn’t even ask him any questions, they were just casual about it and moved on like it was nothing-- qwq

i’m so emotional i don’t think i can articulate how much i’m loving this book

“it’s nice to allow myself to say i am a man, to know i am a man. it’s all real now. i don’t have to pretend anymore. i look back on how i was before and all the wasted time that had to be.”

lou.. ♡

“when people ask me at work ‘what do you want for yourself in the future?’ how can i tell them i just want to be a man?”

“she asked why i abandoned my pursuit of the switchover and i told her because i felt smothered by my own fantasy. that as a man i felt whole inside but uncomfortable on the outside, trying to communicate with others etc. now as a female i feel empty inside but feel freer to relate to others.”

oh lou... :’(((

“i wanna look like what i am but i don’t know what someone like me looks like. when people look at me i want them to think ‘there’s one of those people that has their own interpretation of happiness’. that’s what i am.”

oh god. it’s page 40 and i’m already crying

i’m so fucking bored. 200 pages of nothing

i’m halfway through the book and still no elio, why am I reading this 💀

i’m crying, why are they doing this to me?