elio ☆’s Reviews > We Both Laughed in Pleasure: The Selected Diaries of Lou Sullivan > Status Update

he had sex with two gay men and he didn’t tell them he was trans and they didn’t even flinch q.q like they didn’t even ask him any questions, they were just casual about it and moved on like it was nothing-- qwq

i’m so emotional i don’t think i can articulate how much i’m loving this book

“it’s nice to allow myself to say i am a man, to know i am a man. it’s all real now. i don’t have to pretend anymore. i look back on how i was before and all the wasted time that had to be.”

lou.. ♡

“she asked why i abandoned my pursuit of the switchover and i told her because i felt smothered by my own fantasy. that as a man i felt whole inside but uncomfortable on the outside, trying to communicate with others etc. now as a female i feel empty inside but feel freer to relate to others.”

oh lou... :’(((

“i wanna look like what i am but i don’t know what someone like me looks like. when people look at me i want them to think ‘there’s one of those people that has their own interpretation of happiness’. that’s what i am.”

oh god. it’s page 40 and i’m already crying