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… so do not fritter away your days. Sooner than you fear, you will stand before mirror and a care home, look at your body, and think, ET, locked in a ruddy cupboard for Fortnite.”

…leave you behind, betray your tribal affiliations whenever you speak. On escalators, on trunk roads, in supermarket aisles, the living will overtake you, incessantly. Elegant women will not see you. Store detectives will not see you. Sales people will not see you, unless they sell stair lifts or fraudulent insurance policies. Only babies, cats, and drug addicts will acknowledge your existence…

“you will not apply for membership, but the tribe of the elderly will claim you. Your present will not keep pace with the worlds. This slippage will stretch your skin, sag your skeleton, erode your hair and memory, make your skin turn opaque so your twitching organs and blue cheese veins will be semi-visible. he will venture out only in daylight, avoiding weekends and school holidays. Language, too, will…

“it wasn’t until i got sober that i realized i had taken all those bad masculine traits and magnified them as a defense mechanism when i would drink.”

“i was an addict in almost a competitive sense; i was was gonna drink every guy under the table…I would black out and start fights with men. i must’ve thought of myself as a big, tough guy, so when i got with a girl i had to be that guy, because that’s who they must have seen. i didn’t get that people just liked me because of me…

“But a lot of the things i did back then were because of my own gender dysphoria or whatever. i knew the way women were y treated and i refused to be treated like that, therefore i was completely embracing my masculine side—but never rejecting that i was a woman or denying it—and was the most masculine woman i could possibly be.….

loved:
The Girl with the Big Red Suitcase (Rachel Kushner)
The Morningside (Téa Obreht)

“She takes his shaking hand in the dark. It feels good, like a root must feel, when it finds, after centuries, another route to pleach to underground. There are a hundred thousand species of love, separately invented, each more ingenious than the last, and every one of them keeps making things.” 🥺

-great analysis of how we think of and are taught the distinction between de jure and de facto segregation
“Many legal scholars are properly skeptical of the distinction between de jure and de facto segregation. Where private discrimination is pervasive, they argue, discrimination by public policy is indistinguishable from ‘societal discrimination.’“
-FHA, CCC, PWA (or USHA)

Let see if the transition into the conflict is handled well in pt 2…

need to find out when the preface for this book was written because from a pub health pov i have cunty opinions about it but so far my fav stories have been:
Tales from the LA river by Colm Tóibín
Clinical Notes by Liz Moore

The location of the soul according to benyamin alhadeff, nektaria anastasiadou (146-158)

Gonna write down the stories that i loved the most
The Salamander, Sarah Alkahly-Mills (25-38)
The Suffering Mother of the Whole World, Amany Kamal Eldin (39-52)
A Dog in The Woods, Malu Halasa (93-107)

Buenos Aires of her Eyes, Alireza Iranmehr (136-145)