Shayla > Recent Status Updates

“i’m going straight to hell, but i can’t find it in myself to care. i’d rather be a sinner with her than a saint with anyone else.”
this entire scene is… phenomenal, to be frank!

“she so soft, and when she kisses the corner of my mouth, i whimper. it’s torture—hell on earth—but when she huffs out a laugh at my patheticness and kisses me fully, i’m a lost cause. a man gone, because she’s the best thing i’ve ever tasted, and once isn’t going to be enough. a million fucking times won’t be enough.”
MHMMMMMM
YUPPPPPPPPP

“[kennedy] turns to her husband. ‘great mistake, though, huh?’”
“‘best mistake,’ isaiah adds in retort.”
<33333333
isaiah and kennedy (my very very number one windy city favs!!!!!) being cute af AND a (non-intentional ofc) mention of an ariana song (one of the best from my everything!!) on ag8 (petal :’) !!!!) album announcement day!!!
i love this for me <3333
(parentheses are my fav can u tell?)

“i shrug casually, turning on my high heels and enjoying the click they make against the floor with each step.”
CLICK CLICK CLICK CLACK SYMPHONY I NEED THAT CLICK CLICK CLICK CLACK SYMPHONY I LOVE THE SOUND OF IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(i love that song n that album n raye so much omfg)

sabrina and juno reference!!!!!! i love!!!!!

communicating thru sticky notes >>>
(one of my fav microtropes.. if u consider this one of those.. in a romance book!!)

a chopped reference and all of this sweet banter… i’m loving this!!!!

first fantasy in a whileeeeee… i’m excited tho!! :)

“he reached for shane’s hand and they walked, fingers tangled together, down a busy street in downtown montreal with their heads held high.”
:’’’)

also i do want to say that i really like shane n the reason i’m so angry at him is bc i care n bc i love him n ilya together but i adore ilya n shane’s not being the best boyf n it’s pissing me off bc ilya’s not doing well n i’m honestly scared for him n shane’s not helping!!! he doesn’t need to fix ilya but he could be more supportive! and tapped in to what his partner is going thru! that’s all!

“i’m scared. i think i’ve ruined everything. i shouldn’t have mentioned that party.”
him thinking he’s the reason why everything’s shitty <<<
i’m gonna fucking rageeeeee
ILYA’S NOT DOING ANYTHING WRONG!! SO WHAT HE’S NOT TELLING SHANE EVERYTHING GOING ON IN HIS MIND!! SHANE SHOULD KNOW THAT ILYA HAS SACRIFICED SO MUCH AND THAT HE’S STRUGGLING WITH BEING SECRET!! ILYA SHOULDN’T HAVE TO SAY IT!!

(cont.)
so shane should already know he has to encourage ilya to open up! and yet he isn’t doing shit to make ilya feel comfy enough to do so!!
i understand shane’s not the only one causing the rockiness in their relationship, but his selfishness, lack of internal review, and not asking ilya “how are you?” more often has only made ilya more n more agitated and lonely. that cannot be argued i’m sorry

“i...haven’t talked to him much about my feelings still. i still have not told him that I’m seeing you”
i want to say that i know my sweet ilya baby could be doing more to communicate, and all their problems aren’t just shane’s fault… but… the times ilya’s tried to talk, shane’s reacted weird… and it’s not like shane is new to the idea that ilya keeps his feelings to himself..
(cont.)

“ilya hugged his own chest protectively”
baby :’(

“and shane hadn’t even bothered to look at it before”
what an asshole i’m sorry but… ilya deserves so much more!!! shane has been taking him for granted!! he said it himself!! so don’t get mad at me!
he’s gonna have to do A LOT to get back on my good side bc y’all… he’s in trouble… i’ve disliked him this entire book so far and we’re past the halfway point! i really hope he turns it around :/

“ilya mostly posted photos of random things he saw”
and when they show this on the tv show, i’m gonna cry at his preciousness <3 so earnest n cute!!

“you both think i’m an uptight wet blanket”
i think this as well!

“i don’t deserve him.”
and yes, i agree with his self depreciation (at this moment at least)!
sue me!!

“shane had clearly missed something important.”
YOU FUCKING THINK???????!!!!!

“his own fury was scaring him at the moment. he’d never been this close to flying apart.”
connor storrie bout to give acting performance of the millennium btw
…
“quietly, in a voice that couldn’t disguise his pain, he said, “i already chose you, hollander.””
like.. connor’s emmy is already engraved!! it’s waiting for him!!

“the words hit ilya like a crosscheck to the teeth. shane truly didn’t understand anything. not what ilya had given up for him, certainly”
:’(
and speak on it bubby!!
(shane is pissing me off so much in this book y’all actually reeeeally annoyed by him not doing my baby ilya right like… it’s grinding my gears!!!)

“whatever it was, shane was getting tired of it.”
and i’m getting tired of you shane!

“a few minutes later, ilya was tucked under a blanket on the couch, eating ice cream out of a little bowl. he felt like a child, and he kind of loved it.”
:’’’)
i love him so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

“ilya: are you awake?”
“shane huffed and shook his head”
…
hollander…… don’t piss me off!
(what a way to pick this book back up after weeks of not reading it… being annoyed by one of the main characters! great!! :/)

“be careful.” says rocky. “you are friend now.”
“thanks.” i say. “you are friend also.”
“thank.”
:’’)

“specify aperture to open”
ITS BEST YOU KNOW WHAT YOU DONT APERTURE LETS THE LIGHT INNNN
hs4 at midnight!
(^ not really bc we have a title for the album so we don’t have to refer to it as hs4 anymore (kattdo <3) and it comes out in 48 hours, not at midnight.. all of which is crazy.. what do u mean harry is back n we’re getting a lot of content n we have an album coming in a couple of days?!…… insanity!!!)

ILYA GOT A TATTOO OF A LOON???!!!!
:’’’’’( he’s so cute omg

ryan gosling will bring me places i wouldn’t go without a gun, whether that be old movies i’m uninterested in but will watch bc he’s in them, or a sci-fi novel he’s starring in an adaptation of, making me read a genre i’ve not quite explored bc i’m intimidated…
i have a little over a month til the movie!
gonna try to not be discouraged by any lack of scientific understanding!
i’m excited, but nervous!

back w the boys again <33
i’m so excited!!!!! :)