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i’m really liking this so far. mallory is enjoyably funny with her sarcastic quips and armand is adorable … but neil josten let his cigarette burn to the filter without taking a drag …

i want to finish this book today but i already miss the foxes 🥹

’i won’t be like them,’ neil said. ‘i won’t let you let me be.’

‘one hundred and one,’ andrew said, ‘going on one hundred and two.’

‘you’re a terrible liar,’ neil said, and andrew kissed him into silence.

ugh my babies 🥺

’neil considered turning around and walking away but suspected that was a good way to get shot in the back’

neil is so unhinged i love him.

not sure how everything is going to come together with only 100 pages left …

’and sure, theo only wanted it because she had asked him to call, but something about the way he was looking at her made it feel different’

’no number’ he murmured, watching freddie and not the paper.

*cue internal screams*

this book really pulls you in with the vivid descriptions.

i’m only 30 pages in and already creeped out.

slowly making my way through this (and can confirm i am still obsessed w neil and andrew and all the foxes) bc school is a lot and it does not help that i’m also applying to grad school 😅

’despite that, something seemed different. maybe it was the sunlight streaming through the window, making andrew’s pale hair shine brighter and his hazel eyes seem almost gold. whatever it was, it was disorienting’

my babies 😭

am i enjoying this? yes. but is it kinda cringe at times? also yes.

i am obsessed with this cover 😍

pre read: been waiting for this one🤞🏼fall vibes here i come.

at this point i’m just here for the ryder lore. it’s kinda boring otherwise and so stereotypically ‘college’.

now was that really necessary 😐

’it could mean the world to him, but it couldn’t be everything. it couldn’t fill in the broken pieces of him the way the foxes did. it wouldn’t drop everything to get him from the airport or come back for him without question or call him ‘friend’. neil built his life around exy after his mother died because he needed something to live for, but neil wasn’t alone anymore’

i am not okay 🤧

pre read: kinda want to read a college romance so …

school sucks because why am i in the worst slump ever 😫 even the king’s men can’t get me out of it.

’his thoughts threatened to tug him down to dark places, so neil silently counted as high as he could in every language he knew. it did nothing to help him sleep, but it at least kept the demons at bay for a little longer’

my poor baby neil 🥺 and andrew and aaron and nicky and jean.

sort of pre read: i started this book on aug tenth but couldn’t update because i had no service … but i’m really enjoying it, as expected 🙂‍↕️.

’you are absolutely impossible to put up with sometimes. i might ban you from shopping with us ever again’

‘i tried banning myself last time’ neil said. ‘it obviously didn’t work’

GUYS i am literally cackling. did i mention i love them.

can we pls just get back to playing exy. andrew, aaron, and nicky’s backstories absolutely broke my heart 🥺 after all that has just happened i need some happy moments pls 🙏🏼

niel was already in his coffin. he might as well nail it shut. ‘yeah, i understand you’re a complete asshole’

chapter six guys! my stress levels went up by ten 😅

pre read: first book kinda ended on a cliffhanger so i have to dive right into this one.

i just know that this is not going to end well …

’how are you getting along with your teammates?’

‘i’m pretty sure the majority of them are clinically insane’

the way i cackled. no but seriously i’ve been scrolling through so much fanart of aftg and i just know that this series will most likely destroy me, but in the best way. on a positive note though this is SO good 🙂‍↕️ i love my chaotic exy players 🫶🏼

’he could be anywhere in the world, but he’d be alone until the day he died. he’d never trust anyone enough to let them in’

this is actually really good!

pre read: saw one fanart of this series and i was intrigued. plus the reviews are good so …

’at first joar looks insulted, then rather amused. he grins at ted’

‘this must have been the longest train trip of your life’

i LOVE them all. they have my whole heart. literally crying and laughing, but i’m fine, it’s fine (i’m a little, a lot, scared for the end).

my goal is to finish this by the end of the week but after every chapter i read i go back and write down like five quotes so …

'maria callas is singing on the radio. albert is good at keeping secrets, no one will know that ted cries on him'

new fave character unlocked 🔓 albert. a side note: the way that each chapter comes full circle is really just a testament to how good the writing is in this book.