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part three: stuck - 3.75 stars

part two: the others - 4 stars

“I had a friend. He was with me tonight and we got separated. Have you seen him?”

She gave him the same sad smile.

“Marshal,” she said, “you have no friends.”

“Wherever her soul went—if there was a portal, say, under her body and it opened up as she died and that’s where she went? I’d go back to Paris tomorrow if I knew that portal would open, and I’d climb in after her.”

This world can’t give me that. This world can only give me reminders of what I don’t have, can never have, didn’t have for long enough.

We were supposed to grow old together, Dolores. Have kids. Take walks under old trees. I wanted to watch the lines etch themselves into your flesh and know when each and every one of them appeared. Die together.

I love meburgers. I eat one every day.🤣

rocky bouncing from happiness 🥹🥹

“Grace, question?”

“You are here, question?!”

“You are …” he squeaks. “You …” he squeaks again. “You are here!”

“You save me!” 😭😭😭😭😭

I wish Rocky were here. I always wish Rocky were here.

“You face is leaking.”

I wipe my eyes. “Human thing. Don’t worry about it.”

“Understand.” He pushes himself along to his airlock door. He opens it and pauses there. “Goodbye, friend Grace.”

I wave meekly. “Goodbye, friend Rocky.” 😭😭😭

“You will miss me, question? I will miss you. You are friend.”

“Yeah. I’m going to miss you.” I take another swig of vodka. “You’re my friend. Heck, you’re my best friend. And pretty soon we’re going to say goodbye forever.”

“Not forever. We save planets. Then we have Astrophage technology. Visit each other.” 🥹🥹

NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO

“Good good,” he says. “Is sample ready, question?”
“Yeah, I guess so.”
“You get.”
“Ugh,” I groan. “EVAs are so much work!”
“Lazy human. Go get!”
I laugh. He has a slightly different tone when he’s joking around.

rocky is hilarious

“Okay, so the Krebs cycle in Astrophage has a variant—wait. Do you call her Dr. Shapiro while having sex?”
“Of course. That’s her name.”
“I kind of like it,” she said.
“I’m sorry I asked,” I said. “Now, the Krebs cycle …”

i love DuBois 😭

“And just like that another climate denier is born. See how easy it is? All I have to do is tell you something you don’t want to hear.”

part one: on the run - so far pretty solid, 4.5 stars

Later, in the men’s room, he snorted coke off my breasts and then bent me over the sink and fucked me.

Was it love at first sight? Not for me. But I wasn’t built to be alone. To kill my own food. To be this poor. If Benny was going to save me from that, I’d learn to love him.

vera is going to be a huge problem

sam is actually batshit…i love it

Gary claps and guffaws at everything his dad says. Like a circus animal hoping for a treat. Only his dad never looks in his direction. It’s hard to watch. Makes me glad my dad is dead. 💀

I grab my hoodie off Carolyn’s bed. Tell her I’ll meet her at the dance.
It’s a lie.
I’m not gonna meet her. This is the last time I’ll ever see Carolyn. Or this town.
That’s what happens when Sam fucks up.

i’ve only read like 3 pages & i’m weirdly obsessed already

“You know better than that. I’m impossible to get rid of.” I shook my head with a smile playing on my lips as I threw his words back at him. “Like an infection.”

He didn’t laugh or smile, and he didn’t attempt a joke as his eyes bored into mine. “If that is true…” The fear in his gaze shifted, becoming another primal emotion. “… then I wish for you to infect me.”

“‘Friend’?” he hissed through gritted teeth.

“… What?” I asked, confused. I glanced at him, then toward Ava and Geraldo, who kept walking. Then it clicked: he was pissed about me calling him my friend earlier.

“That’s eight ways now, because when we leave here, I’m going to fuck the word friend out of your vocabulary.” 🤭

Her kiss was light, tantalizing—and everything I never knew I had been missing.

She pulled back and looked up at me, her fingers tracing the line of my jaw. A slow, mischievous smile curved her lips. “You still have witch breath.”

Something snapped in me, and I was afraid it was my self-control. Desire coiled and burned in me, and I let it. “Then fix it,” I dared, throwing down the challenge.

“You already consume my every waking thought. Must you consume my dreams as well?”

“Don’t laugh, but as lame as it sounds, I do want what Gabby worships in her silly cheesy movies. Well, I did. I tried to get serious with Kaden once. He pulled away from me then. He’s been different ever since. Definitely more of an open relationship type of guy.”

His eyes bored into mine a fraction of a second too long. “Pity. I wouldn’t share.”

part one: you belong with me ☑️

WHAT JUST HAPPENED

“I find that beauty and brutality often go hand in hand. To the point where—“ She bites her lip before clearing her throat. “You know, I actually worry sometimes that—“ She knots her fingers tighter in her lap. “I worry that everything beautiful, even love, eventually ends in bloodshed.”

“I’d love to see you again,” I said.

“Okay,” she said. “Sure.”

She was worried she’d seem too eager, I think. So I went first. Showed her how impatient I actually am.

“When?” I asked. “How?”

Then, these six words before she turned around: “I know where to find you.”

It was a strange thing for her to say.

But God, Blair, I swear. It was so sexy, too.

- he’s about to find out 😬