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i made a vow to myself to finish this thing before the year ends and goddamnit i'm going to stay true to my word no matter how much this hurts me.

NOTHING IS HAPPENING. okay yeah as someone with major depression and apathy i can kind of sympathize and relate but for the most part this privileged white woman is INSUFFERABLE. i'm sorry but i do not get the hype for this one.

this is lush. it is beautiful, inside and out. intimately captures yearning, friendship, the repression of forbidden feelings. such a delight.

NO. FUCK. IT IS SO OVER.

started this as a palate cleanser, something to keep my reading challenge alive because a little life is something to Savor, and also because it autumn.

it's nice. makes me appreciate the beauty and wonder in the ordinary, the mundane. more linear than i thought it'd be.

mhm. yeah. i know. i did this to myself.

i don't know what the fuck i just read. still trying to process it. but somehow i got through reading about The Injury without crying. i just feel sick. this book is FANTASTIC.

i am physically shaking. why do i do this to myself.

ohhhmygod someone just amputate this man's arms so he'll stop fucking hurting himself. what the fuck. i feel exhausted reading this. i am unwell. goodnight.

not me being all "i feel so immersed in this book i want to savor it i'm not ready for it to end,,," when i still have um. 242 pages left.

hey i came back to this after a few days and have been welcomed back with the sweet gay Lovers. i am scared. "the happy years." you think i trust that for a second with THIS book? yeah exactly.

no. what the FUCK was that. i've had a few moments that hurt, but this BROKE ME. i cried. hard. it was not pretty.

i have no words. genuinely, what the fuck.

hey so the way this book has a way of catching me totally off-guard by triggering my very specific traumas is so awesome and cool. yeah. love that.

WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF.

why do i do this to myself.

ough.

we got a small break from the Jude Misery Show. praise be!

oh it is SO tempting to just stop here and never pick this book up again. finally something good happened. i know it will not stay that way.

HAHA WHAT.

this is already so mentally draining. but good. really good. very immersive. i do hope we get back to the other characters soon because if this is just going to be the Jude Misery Show from here on out i dunno how i'm gonna be able to handle it.

haha, haha! i am in Danger

mhm. not even 100 pages in yet and this thing has already triggered me! :]

i feel like i am /almost/ getting into this. but not quite :( bit sad innit?