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“For we are never forced to endure alone.”

Ok so question: should I DNF or does it get better?

I’ve never wanted to put a book down as fast as this one. I’m not fully sure what the magic system is or very intrigued by the premise. Should I give it until like 25%?

“…wanting to see the rest of us hurt, because she was hurting. You have to wonder how much of the whole world’s turning is fueled by that very fire.”

He’s on heroine and Xanax, and Oxy, all because of football.. the thing that was supposed to get him up out of there 🥲

We’re in better shape but for whatever reason I’m waiting for the other shoe to drop and I fear it’ll shatter my heart.

“It’s more like this bag of gravel im having around every day of the year. If somebody else brings it up, honestly, I’m glad of it. Like just for that minute they can help me drag the gravel.”

No breathing room, sheesh. Cut the 11 year old some slack, damn.

My whole body is tense, talk about a traumatic existence and he’s only ten. I feel how I felt getting through a little life… not my usual read it but I keep reminding myself growth is uncomfortable and sometimes we have to stare at the ugly to influence beauty.

“And I will say, ‘Shane Hollander, will you please marry me so I can become Canadian citizen faster?’”

So how come this didn’t make it on the show???? 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹

“I can’t, Ilya wanted to say. I can’t because if I do you’ll think I’m pathetic, or, worse, you’ll say it back and then what the f*** are we supposed to do?”

AGH.

“I’m coming to the cottage.”

ICONIC LINE. IM GIDDY, IM FLOATING ON A CLOUD.

“Ilya’s heart had entered into it, and that changed everything. It wasn’t thrilling or fun anymore—it was torture.”

ILYA WAS GOING TO BREAK UP With HIM BEFORE THE ACCIDENT??????????

“I’m fucked,” he murmured in Russian. “I am so f**king in love and it’s horrible.”

Poor Ilya with his perfect Shane, and his perfect face.

“Somewhere, buried deep in his brain, there was a third reason that was screaming for attention.
Ilya ignored it.”

RIGHT AFTER THE CLUB SCENE 🤭🤭🤭🤭🤭

“He realized, when he was back in his room, that they hadn’t even kissed.”

THEY. DIDNT. EVEN. KISS. AFTER 6 MONTHS NO CONTACT.

“It was as if, with every heave of the cup over his head, Rozanov was saying “F*** you, f*** you. I did it. F*** you,” to someone.”

🥹🥹🥹🥹

Shane fought to keep his voice even. “I might open the door.”
Rozanov smiled. “I might knock.”


🤪🤪🤪🤪

The entirety of chapter 24 had my heart in a headlock. I couldn’t breathe past my sobs.

HE DID NOTTTTTTTT

Okay but I feel my heart getting torn from my chest already.

Prediction: tragic enemies to lovers?

Struggling between staying on track with my reading goals, getting through my physical TBR, collecting the agar achievement badges to branch out into different genre’s & obsessively thinking about Ilya & Shane 😭

“In a world where everyone will demand something from you, it requires a certain degree of selfishness to be happy..”

“He showed me his scars, and in return he let me pretend I had none.”

Idk why but I’m about to start bawling, poor Circe ☹️

“I came for her, but there was no one who would come for me.”

“I will not be like a bird bred in a change, I thought, too dull to fly even when the door stands open.”

“Beneath the smooth, familiar face of things is another that waits to hear the world in two.”

“If there was a god, it seemed my mother must have had her foot on his neck, demanding good things come my way. That if we had to be ripped apart right at our turning point, just when things were really starting to get good, the least god could do was make a few of her daughter’s pipe dreams come true.”

“She had taken the utmost care to preserve the evidence of my existence and growth, capturing me in images, saving all my documents and possessions. She had all knowledge of my being memorized.”