Melanie Holzer > Recent Status Updates

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this was cute, but Rachel’s friend was dating and screwing the love of her life for a year and they’re both okay with this? that would be weird for me.. my friend knowingly screwing the man i love and then saying ‘oh you should get together’. oh wow, thanks for fucking him for me? and now letting me have him! you’re such a great friend!

i think - i think maybe i want to keep them all, and that’s the most terrifying thing i’ve admitted to myself in a very long time.

‘if that’s who you need to believe i am right now, nox, then i won’t try to change your mind. if you need me to be the villain in your story to get through your day, then i’ll accept that.’

if this is how he plans on keeping me in line, sign me up for ruining this man’s life because i’m not ever going to give this up.

it was out of our hands because my bond is a jealous, cantankerous bitch and just took over.

i freeze, turned on and ready to just let my bond take what it wants, consequences be damned, but then his door flies open and his secretary walks into his bedroom.
his secretary.
has a key.
to his bedroom.

then there’s the small fact that the resistance knew you. you didn’t run away from your bonds. i’ll bet every fucking last dollar i have that you didn’t.

i can’t help it. now that i know you want me as bad as i want you, it’s fucking addictive to watch you react. you do it so fucking well, oli. i can smell how badly you want me. do you think you can hold the bond back if i eat you out on the back of my bike?

gabe chuckles at me, as he grabs his boxers out of my hands and pulls them on before i’ve made the decision of whether i’m looking or not.
‘it won’t bite, bond. i won’t either, unless you ask me to.’

he’s afraid i’m going to lose it at the mere sight of this woman working closely with north because i’m a sensitive little bitch now thanks to my horny, nightmare of a bond.

but i don’t want to, i want more. i want him all over me until he’s seeping into my skin and soaking into the very core of me and there’s no chance of anyone ever getting between us.

he’s taken pillows from each and every one of them and now my bed is like a delicious melting pot of all of them. my bond is writhing in my chest with joy, my skin tingling, and every last one of their scents is mingling together in an orgy of perfection. literally, it’s as though they’re all lying around lying around naked in my bed and i’m about to dive into that, my bond is practically orgasming with joy.

the car pulls up but gabe grabs my arm to stop me climbing in. ‘oli, the bonding is the least of my issues here. i thought you didn’t want us… i thought you didn’t want me.’

what the hell are you thinking about? your bond is humming right now.

you look fucking perfect my clothes, sweetness.

i feel like if i murdered this man right now, i could argue my case in court and have it be counted as justifiable.

nox cuts him off. she’s more than just a fucking gifted, that’s what i’m trying to say. she didn’t just heal us enough to survive, she fixed everything. everything! my fingers are straight, gabe. she fixed an injury that happened twenty fucking years ago.’

i never doubted that or you for a minute, sweetness. fuck the rest of them, i already told you that it’s us against the world.

you were never taught to share, were you? your ‘only child syndrome’ is showing.

there’s a tick in his cheek as he clenches his teeth that tells me he’s just as affected by this closeness as i am and suddenly this entire situation feels dangerous to me.

i don’t care about that shit, sage. i care about all of the other qualities you have that make you the best possible friend for me.

**she proceeds to list all these cute reasons, but there isn’t enough available space for me to add them in here.**
my favorite one:

i care that when i grab notes in classes when you’ve skipped them, you thank me like i’ve conquered a kingdom for you.

there’s something about gryphon that might break me.

… the tactical team left behind a pair of leather ankle boots that were the greatest thrift shop find of my life. i refuse to admit how much that loss hurts me.
there may be tears.

‘why didn’t you tell me?’
‘i didn’t think he’d deny you like this.’
‘really? because i’ve know the man for a handful of minutes, and none of this surprises me.’
‘i wanted to tell you, calla, i did, but…’
‘but?’
‘i’ve always felt protective of you and i worried -‘
‘well, you’ve done a great job protecting me. i didn’t need a protector, grae. what i needed was a friend.’

this will be the last time i would ever stand here. i tried to remember every detail, every scent and sound, pressing each sense into my memory so i could hold onto them.

i loved the way he whispered my name, wished i could hear the resonance of that sound every day of my life.

holy hell!! the entire oath-taking ceremony!

these talons are sooo hot!

‘you can’t keep running from yourself,’ the other girl whispered, voice fading. ‘no matter what choice you end up making. no matter where you go - you will always be there.’

.. from the moment he had first laid eyes on her, he’d known beyond a doubt, that wren loughty would become the immovable force that would redirect the trajectory of his life forever.